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rutee07
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I used an ATM to withdraw some money, the transaction timed out and didn't dispense the cash. I reported it to the bank. They said it will take 7 days but I'll follow up with them everyday.

I ran out of antidepressants and now I'm too broke to buy some. The only hospital that sells it is the mental hospital and they don't accept cards. The only way I can still manage to go to work and eat this week is through a credit card. It really sucks because I didn't want to use that shit anymore.

As for my savings, I burned all that when I was unemployed for several months due to depression. I know once I get my paycheck or when the bank gives my money back (whichever comes first), this will all be fixed but these stupid incidents make me feel like a helpless loser. Shit seems to happen a lot and disaster never ends. It's not this specific incident but all other incidents of life fucking me over and things suddenly going wrong that reminds me of the time when we were wealthy and one night, our house burned down and that was it.

I wonder if my life is always gonna be like this. I know that's a crazy thought but I'm getting more and more convinced every day that it will always be nuisances, chaos, and pain.

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  • 8
    It will be okay. Dont lose your shit, my dear ๐Ÿ˜˜
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    @irene Thanks. I hope. ๐Ÿ˜ž
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    @rutee07 it will definitely be good. Some technical issues are just technical issues. Try borrowing some from your colleague or even just send him a cashless transaction right away.
  • 1
    @irene I have no colleagues. I'm alone in the office again.
  • 1
    @irene I think I still have some money in my checking account but I already missed one dose yesterday and the bank is closed at this hour so might as well wait for Friday. I just hope I don't experience the same side effects as when I first started on antidepressants..
  • 1
    @rutee07 your boss?
  • 3
    @rutee07 don't be anxious. it will be all right.
  • 2
    @irene My boss (manager) is in another building far from mine and works on a different shift so we barely see each other online.
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    @irene Thank you. ๐Ÿถ
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    @rutee07 ๐Ÿ˜˜
  • 3
    Capitalism sucks major balls some times. Lemme know if you need anything, even if it’s just to vent / £20. ๐Ÿ‘Œ
  • 5
    And also, raise this with work, I’ve found companies are quite willing to offer advances on wages when this sort of stuff happens.

    I know it’s hella embarrassing, but I’ve had to do it a few times, it’ll be okay :)
  • 5
    @Brolls I never thought about salary advance. Thanks. I will ask my manager about it tomorrow. Maybe get to work earlier since we work opposite hours. Thank you. ๐Ÿ•
  • 3
    You should save some money and then invest it in a psychologist/psychiatrist for your well-being
    I hope everything turns out good for you
  • 3
    maybe meditate or do something that makes you happy like watching a movie or even a cartoon? you know you can actually make your brain do the same thing that antidepressants can do.
  • 2
    @echonox Yes!! Meditation is awesome!
  • 2
    > I wonder if my life is always gonna

    > be like this.

    I guess given how random events like to clump, that some poor unlucky souls will have lives like that.

    <-- One such.

    My family used to be rich too !

    I'm hoping since moving to the luckiest place in the country, that might change..

    Only time will tell.

    But it wouldn't surprise me if the next 30 years was full of shit too.

    On the plus side, you have the wisdom of devRant users to help you through problems.

    You could try asking in medical forums, someone could give you some for free ?

    I guess though you need someone kinda local for that..

    Any local online chatrooms you could ask in ?
  • 3
    Tip: don't withdraw all your money.
    Convince everyone you can to take transfers, go to places that accept cards.

    What happened to you is of of the many risks or having cash on you.

    Hope you get your drugs soon.
  • 4
    Hey as someone who deals with depression and went through a period where I couldn’t afford antidepressant (took about 5 months to get back on them) I can understand what you’re going through. I remember feeling like the universe was against me and was just fucking with my life because of some type of vendetta. It freaking sucks man, but the best part is that it actually gets better. It’s just a shithole of a rough patch and when we get over it, that breath of relief feels so freaking good. Keep fighting man, it’ll get sorted out.
  • 4
    @shivayl I already have a psychiatrist. I can't afford my medication at the moment though.

    @echonox I've been trying to get back to meditation as I get better with antidepressants. I still need the antidepressants since I had very low serotonin levels at some point, that nothing really helped anymore.
  • 3
    @Nanos Unfortunately, it's very rare for people here to go to a psychiatrist or consider depression as a real illness. When I went to the hospital, it's mostly really old people or ones that are so out of it, they think they have superpowers.

    I remember the first time I went to the hospital because I was really depressed and didn't know what to do anymore. The other guy near me was being asked it he thinks he has superpowers, he said yes, and other stuff like that.
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    @mundo03 I think I'll be more cautious when withdrawing cash next time. I often just withdraw everything and keep the cash in the drawer to avoid the hassle of ATMs being unavailable when needed. Maybe I will try some amout in different intervals in case this happens again.

    I just hate banks so much and why people have to adjust because of their crap system but I guess that's the way it is now.
  • 2
    @stingarray14 What happened during those five months? Did you get withdrawal symptoms? I've been on it since November last year and this is the first time I missed a dose.
  • 5
    Thanks, everyone. Your comments are all very helpful to me.
  • 2
    @rutee07 yeah I most likely did experience withdrawals for the first ~month. I honestly don’t think I noticed or was able to distinguish between my “normal” depression and the effects of withdrawals and added on anxiety from not being on the meds until I took the time to reflect about that time.Those months were just overall really dreadful for me.
  • 3
    I finally got my meds! Woo, boy, now I can sleep. Life is grrrreat!
  • 1
    @rutee07 share some meds with me. I cannot sleep
  • 1
    @irene *gives you some*
  • 1
    @rutee07 or even better, can I use you as a pillow in my bed?
  • 1
    @irene Like an anime body pillow full of spiders?
  • 1
    @rutee07 no, like a pillow with a girl printed on it and with built in Fleshlight
  • 1
    @irene I have one, still unused, in my drawer. I still don't know what to do with it. ๐Ÿ˜
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    @rutee07

    Does intelligence count as a superpower.. ?
  • 1
    Mind you, I do have super hearing and super smell powers..

    So I can tell who is at the front door before I open it..

    Amusingly I found out about my hearing after my then girlfriend complained I didn't listen to her..

    I told her I couldn't hear her above the noise of her kids !

    So, off we went to hospital, and it turned out I have amazingly good hearing, just the kids really was too loud..

    A friend of mine solved that problem by marrying a guy that was deaf. :-)

    I wired up a alarm bell off a bank as our front door bell, as it was the only way to hear it above the noise of the kids.

    On the plus side, if someone rang it when you was at the local shops, you could still hear it. :-)
  • 2
    @Nanos had no problems with neighbors, did ya?
  • 1
    @Nanos These days, intelligence is so rare that it might as well be considered a superpower.
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    @irene

    Already had problems with them, couldn't be any worse !

    They did eventually move, but this did require me to do things I'm not allowed to talk about.
  • 1
    @Nanos so you're a Russian spy ๐Ÿค”
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    @irene ะฝะตั‚ :-)
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    @Nanos ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ
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