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s0LA
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I have not a true story but rather looking for some help.

So i am a Software Engineer in a Junior position and well... imposter syndrome kicks in apparently.

The reasons why i say this are pretty straight forward:
1. I am pretty sure i know nothing, also my "creativity" in how to solve certain problems are just straight up complex.
2. I don't understand most of the stuff i do, using a framework from my company includes this.
(such as using multithreading, seriously i have no idea what threads are, how mutexes work, etc.)
3. I have come to this job / position by pure luck and lying.
4. Apparently my Boss just told me straight up that he likes my work. That's when i start to realize i might have an imposter syndrome...

So how do i deal with this shit? On a theoretical basis i might seem to understand stuff, yet i don't believe i have any knowledge about anything i do, couldn't even implement a Vector myself or something....

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    1) Pretty sure everyone thinks they come up with complex solutions.
    2) Allocate a few minutes to go through code samples and tutorials on a daily basis until you remember it (our brain loves repetition).
    3) Everyone lies, you shouldn't feel bad about it. There certainly are people that should be feeling they got a job by pure luck (e.g. management position without experience over a friendship), but you're not among them.
    4) Well, feel good about positive feedback. That is a confirmation that you didn't get the job by pure luck.
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    So what do you mean, lie? Lie that you can do more than you actually can or rather lie that you can do certain things better than you do? I think there's a difference between lying and misjudging yourself.
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    @Konstrukt maybe talking about projects that have been started but not finished, and just telling them about the project, what you did..
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    I think of imposter syndrome as a creative way for my subconscious mind to try and get me to remember that I'm good at things.

    The fear is the helper to push you into a positive mindset. Imposter syndrome is a noisy set of thoughts, for sure, and getting sucked into the false truth is tempting.

    But you have been coding, you know how to do it.

    Take the compliment from your boss as truth.

    Also think about the reverse situation: what would you say to someone who is feeling similar to you, to encourage them?
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    Well, I have to say that many people here quickly fall into tearful self-pity. Instead of thinking that you can't do anything, you can actually learn to fill in the gaps in your knowledge. But it is much easier to say that you can't change your situation...
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    If you lied to get there i would remove the word syndrome
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    @Khepu The lie was used to get into an education program, the position i am currently at, was not caused by the lie, but rather was a side effect to even get there.
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    @s0LA
    Lying is a fact of adult life, unfortunately. You'll see a lot of posts around here referring to the fact that job postings ask for literally impossible skills, due to the lack of knowledge of job posters. Bosses force you to lie by asking hypothetical questions and suggesting the answer/soliciting a specific answer (doing otherwise can flatline your career, especially given that tactic indicates low emotional intelligence). We lie for the sake of sparing someone's feelings. Lying is in many ways the foundation of radical honesty (lying to yourself that you can sustain being that type of abuse sponge). If we feel like someone might be a physical danger to us, we might lie to truncate the interaction.

    I wouldn't worry about it too much, everything conspires against your success. Just understand the difference between a political lie and a factual lie, and when to employ them. Most importantly, remember it's in the past, all you can do is move forward.

    https://blog.codinghorror.com/trust...
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