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rutee07
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After this lockdown, I think I'll have my brain scanned. I had too many incidences where I thought I didn't do something but it turns out I did. It's been happening ever since I was a junior developer.

Yesterday, I told my boss that I didn't finish a certain feature because I was borrowed by another team. I planned to finish it now and while I was testing, it was working and the feature was already there. I checked the code from the original source to see if that feature existed a long time ago, it wasn't. It only exists in my workspace which means I finished it but have no recollection of finishing it.

I remember similar incidents in previous projects. One from my first year in development where my senior complimented my work and I said I didn't work on that then he showed me the documentation, source code, and the last modified by. It was all me.

It may sound like a good problem to have but I can imagine people getting annoyed when I "deny" working on something or just me sabotaging myself for saying I didn't finish something when I actually did. It's also creepy as hell not knowing the person who accomplished the task for you when that person is actually you.

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  • 11
    At least you can go back and look. I repeatedly second guess whether I did something when working on a vehicle and my only choices are take it all back apart to see or say a small prayer and finish putting it back together despite not knowing.

    And usually it isn't something that I've forgotten, it's something that I did while on autopilot and the task just didn't fully register with the memory bank. The more routine the job, the worse I am about it. But of course the minute I decide to write it off as just nerves, it turns out that I really did forget to do something and now I have to take even more shit back off because I didn't go back when I first thought about it. Or worse still, the customer rides off in it and whatever I forgot leads to a whole new set of problems by the time it makes it back to me.
  • 5
    @M1sf3t "It's something that I did while on autopilot and the task just didn't fully register with the memory bank."

    I think this could be it. Glad to know I'm not the only one experiencing this.
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    @rutee07 it very well could be. I've been fighting with this problem since I was a kid. I can appear completely coherent to someone and even hold a modestly indepth conversation with them yet my mind be 90 miles away and not a single word said actually register.

    It was so bad at one point that my parents would even accuse me of lying to them about not having homework because they would talk to my teacher(a co-worker) at the end of the day and the teacher would tell them that he/she specifically remembered seeing me write down the assignment. And god knows where the note I made would actually be. Most likely written on whatever random piece of paper I had on my desk at the time, but still, it was anyone's guess at what I managed to do with it after leaving my desk.
  • 3
    @M1sf3t It would be interesting to watch a video of you doing these things and seeing yourself do things you don't even remember doing. :D

    Feels like a stranger doing things for you.
  • 3
    @rutee07 that it definitely would be. I've got a photographic memory when I'm actually paying attention. And I don't even mean that figuratively, I can vividly picture events step by step and documents word for word, format for format as they were written on whatever medium I read them on.

    I just have no control over what I'm paying attention too. If I try to force it, I may remember half, but most likely all it will do is delay me from solving the other thing I'm contemplating in the back of my mind. Which is usually processing one way or the other, whether consciously or subconsciously. By the time I manage to finish or put off what I can't focus on, odds are the thing that my mind won't leave alone is either solved or at least a plan has been formed to solve it, no matter if I had let myself give it any thought or not.
  • 3
    Lol. If I ever get amnesia it would go undiagnosed for years, cuz this goldfish can't remember shit. So yeah, lists and writing down just about everything.
    (mine might be caused by constant anxiety, cuz who forgets what they literally just did?)
  • 4
    There's a reason checklists reduce the number of mistakes by a huge margin. But even with those I sometimes read code from the day before and wonder how I could write such obviously wrong code while being awake.
  • 2
    Your working overtime while your asleep. Like sleepwalking.
  • 1
    yeah I would see a neurologist...you don't want something like that getting worse as you get older and have it not diagnosed. Shit just trying to picture that happening to me would scare the shit outta me lol what an emotional rollercoaster! Hope you figure it out!
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    @jbrandona119 That is actually my concern. I may have some sort of disease that people usually get at an old age and it could get worse. I'll have it checked as soon as I can. Thank you.
  • 2
    This kind of amnesia is a common symtom of sleep deprivation. Not saying it's the case here, but if you lack sleep try fixing that and this problem might go away.
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