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Anxiety sucks.
Clonazepam sucks.
Insomnia sucks.
Maybe coding would be fun again if I just got out of this neurotic rut.🙄
And..... it’s Monday now....7 -
So I'm starting a job at a large company in the early part of next year... it's a total mindfuck because the salary is a m a s s i v e bump up and for the first time I'm experiencing imposter syndrome. I never really fully grasped the feeling that a lot of people here described until after that final interview and an offer was extended. I'm stoked AF to start and it's going to be a huge learning experience while working there.
The company wants me and my family to relocate to another state (US) and it's got my stomach doing somersalts.
It's especially painful because the current place I'm working is amazing; the people are great, the work is solid but fairly low pressure, and there's lateral freedom to work on improving the systems and infrastructure whenever there is free time. And I know that the new gig is going to have certain expectations that need to be met or my head could be on the chopping block.
High risk, high reward I guess 😅
My anxiety is raw dogging my brain and it fucking sucks, but my wife has been doing a great job keeping me level headed and thinking logically about the future and growth this opportunity brings with it.
I'm not trying to gloat or brag, just really needed a place to share some of this since I'm freaking out and don't feel like I have enough experience/skills to take on this job. Those interviews left me worn out. 4 rounds and the final interview was 5 hours long all in one day. 😫2 -
I just hate this life so damn much, 14 and depressed with possible anxiety and suicidal attempts is not easy. My parents are the worst. MY brother sucks. I wanna die.7
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1. It's one of those few times in life that listening to Lq's Numb doesn't make me feel less anxious. Or Somewhere I Belong. Either way, anxiety levels are on all time high.
2. I have completely lost appetite. Usually at this point in time I'd go to doctor and ask for Xanax or something similar, to chill for a few days. But covid. I ain't going to any clinic, plus, ain't nobody got time for that.
3. On top of everything, I am also PMSing. The lack of energy, times n. (n>10)
4. Struggling to get out of bed for hours is now a reality.
5. I'm glad ("glad" is exaggeration tho) this will pass in a few weeks. I am hanging on to that hope and experience tells me it will pass. But my feelings are like "nah, we doomed. Let's just run away. Or just sleep until it all passes or we die of starvation."
6. My brain must work for the next few days. If I have to push it by drowning it in sugar, I will. But I'm also obese rn. Well, I guess it's "Hello diabetes!".
7. My hands and feet are cold. Like, freezing cold. Meanwhile, the rest of me is sweating. This sucks. Ngl.
8. I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. Like, those last stabby stabs moments in a battle where you know you're gonna fall down soon. I know this feeling of doom and gloom is PMS related, but it's there. I have no solution for that aside from nicotine and sugar.
9. I can't even cry. Which is sad.
... Do you see what's happening there? That's the loop I'm in.5 -
I hate systemic problems.
I hate that a stable housing situation and perfect weather and luck are required to work.
I hate that malcontents and malicious people fucked people out of their jobs.
I hate rolling and cancerous financial ruin coming from scammers ponzi schemes and corrupt people who only care about lining their own pockets.
I hate that being middle class is a nightmare of anxiety because nothing is guaranteed.
I hate the lack of services to quickly without stupid catches get a person on their feet.
I hate the retarded take on things these fuckers created to make these problems worse.
I hate hardcore drug addicts and pushers fucking up benefits and services for honest people.
I hate whores stealing houses apartments and jobs by selling their asses and children to old fucked up perverted diseased scum.
I hate schedules that make it hard to get places.
People who drive everywhere because public transportation sucks.
Public transportation sucking because people suck up oil and destroy car after car
Basic housing not being available so people can be safe at night and find jobs.
I hate wars that suck money out of my country
I hate parents that fuck up the next generation by abusing their children
I hate the parents who fucked up the current generation making this time period miserable
I hate people not facing facts about basic necessities
I hate decaying buildings that cost more to repair because no one maintains them
I hate sprawling shit houses that could be combined into towers
And most of all
I hate people taking extreme liberties in destroying my own telling me I have to be careful what I say and I hate fucking liars6 -
Got Aa job interview offer from a far location via my site contact page. I don't even know what to do or say. Social Anxiety sucks. I saw their sophisticated site. How do I not feel dwarfed? I don't know how to respond. Please help.1
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Well. After my Wooting keyboard broke and this shitty corsair keyboard broke, I am now keyboardless.
Seriously, there doesn't seem to be a reliable keyboard on the market. Everything fucking sucks.
I get to wait 36 hours before I can even work. Fuck everything, my anxiety is going to have a field day.14