It’s been a while since I have posted here but I felt like I want to rant without any thought of being judged.
I had take a break from work and it was working well for me. I had my ups and downs. I was always working on something but on the outside everyone just assumed that I did nothing.

I had other personal incidents that affected me. I started to get trigger with my environment and how much ever effort I made to make it lower it was still triggering.

For that reason I thought to pick up course in a different country and work on myself w/o these triggers existing.

Even though I have a plan to get started to work on things. There is this huge heaviness in my head that doesn’t seem to go away. It makes me doubt wether I am good enough to be a developer.

The previous two companies that I worked for keep reaching out to me to join them back but it still doesn’t feel like enough.

I think I am just scared to fail at this point.

Plus with everyone constantly asking me about the recession it’s adding up to my cloudy head.

I know this cloudy feeling is temporary but it’s this that stops me from being an optimal person and that mildly infuriates me.

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