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RAZERZ27446yRight now, it's the only thing I want. To be able to just speak without the negative response or spreading of your own troubles and just express yourself
Golank4626yAdd your 2 cents...
I guess it’s just me going into deep thought again. I want something that basically describes biblical heaven. No pain, no sorrow, etc. I want to have all the time in the world, but I don’t. I want to have a conversation with someone that goes well, but it doesn’t always work out that way. I want to have some friends to cheer me on, or encourage me, but they are all depressed. No joke.
I want people to have a conversation with about things I know, but I can’t. Either I do t understand enough, or I can’t concentrate. That is also one of my problems. It hurts to talk to friends now. Especially when I can’t concentrate enough to listen, or that I have to ask them multiple times to repeat themselves and explain it.
It hurts. Even on top of all that, I have a personality to strive towards good friendships. Seems good in theory, but has major disadvantages. If I get annoyed at then for some reason, I can’t tell them the truth, in fear of hurting them. No matter how hard I try.
It gets to the point where I don’t have any motivation for anything. If no one else does, why should I? I’ve had that happen multiple times. This actually reminds me of a picture i saw: you could be on the verge of tears from depression and absolutely no one would notice. Not your classmates, teacher, parents, brother or sister, or best friends.
I guess that’s what repression is all about. Shoving all your worry and fear in your consciousness until you can’t no more. Then it all comes out in ways no one likes. Unlike depression which lets it all out at once while it happens.
Like one day I could be the happiest kid alive, and a few hours later, want to sit in bed and cry. Which is also hard to do, believe it or not, all thanks to my friends over at repression.
Plus the amount of people “joking” about killing themselves is way too big. I don’t know who’s in actual depression vs who is using it as a meme.
I went down to my computer just about an hour ago to work on a few projects, ended up leaving because of my inexistent motivation.
I just want to be happy and see other people happy. It seems like a simple request at first, but is almost impossible nowadays.
I know one of my friends is/will read this. For you, sorry if you wanted me to talk to you to maybe get this all out to you. But tbh, I’m better at expressing my feelings through text. And I know how much you hate mobile keyboards.
On final note, thank you @Golank for encouraging me to express myself. I know it may seem like just a small request but isn’t.
To the one friend that I’m sure is reading this at this very moment, I hope you have a good life and find a way out of depression.
To the other friend, I hope you the best of luck, and a way out of chain loops. Thank you for listening when I needed it most.
No, I’m not contemplating suicide. I does sure sound like it but God forbid I ever do. I just want to spread some encouraging thoughts and appreciation.
Nanos143356ySounds like the solution is a better Facebook..