I work my ass off everyday and my wife stays home spending my money, eating my food, and living in my house.

Everyday we get amazon deliveries. There goes my money.

Either way, I don't say anything to her.

And now she says all I talk about is how tired I am and I just lay down and play chess after work. I'm getting verbally abused in so many ways and I'm wondering how does a person have the audacity to say such things.

Anyway, I started beating her without any marks or severely until she understood. But it's been a year and I don't think this person understands a simple request "stop verbally abusing and disrespecting me". It happed again last night, she is definitely depressed/sad in the morning. And I feel bad, but today after work I don't plan on going back home. Don't want to deal with that. I rather go to bars and just sit there.

uhhhhhhhhhh

don't think someone talking to you is verbal abuse. though if you don't like sharing your resources with a person maybe you don't emotionally like them and should figure that out yourself instead of being passive aggressive, or actually aggressive, about it

do believe marriage had a line about loving someone until death parts you. that's a consequence of love, cuz it makes you irrational where such things would never have even crossed your mind to be otherwise. happy people don't complain. happiness is the greatest anesthesia, where you'll do super dumb shit like it's nothing. def makes you vulnerable but it is what it is

also paying for things and disliking it and "not telling someone" makes you the pussy there. might have some connection to how communication is considered verbal abuse there. honestly I see that often and it's sad. everybody babies to where words hurt them now. words are symptoms of the actual things you should be judging. them not being uttered doesn't fix problem

@jestdotty People need manners

Oh.. Anyway, how's the kid doing?

I don't love her, no matter how hard I try, I mean I don't mind sharing resources but she didn't work for 3 years and treats me like a garbage man

@kanyewest was it an arranged marriage? Do they have that in karatestan / ninjaland?

@retoor 8 months old already witnessing mom and daddy fights.

Username check out

wtf, if you're married then why do you keep hitting on @retoor 😂

Also, you claim she verbally abuses you and so you "hit her without marks" you need help my guy.

@kanyewest could say the same about your story

hitting people smaller than you ain't no manners

@kanyewest can't force love. either happens or doesn't

@jestdotty II got my ribs and nose broken by my stepfather and always hated him for beating me as a kid, but now I have become him. Problem is I'm not intentionally doing this. It's almost automatic and I get blacked out. She makes so angry just with her vicious words. Anyway, I am aware that I am at fault. I need to think about a solution, or at least live separately. She's in her first trimester I guess that's why she's being so rude.

@jestdotty To think what happened last night is real is really scared. I twisted her hands, arms and headbutted her head and nose. She said those areas are sore today. But no visible marks or damage.

It's bit weird to be 'blacked out' but still manage to hit with no marks. Bit weird skill to be proud off. Also, it's time to stop with that now, it's not too late. The one using violence is always the wrong one, remember that. If you quit now, God can still forgive you.

@kanyewest oh I thought you already had a kid

ofc the woman is gonna be needy when pregnant. you stupid. her body is full-on trying to grow the baby and needs nutrients, and the whole thing is super stressful. I wouldn't even have a kid with someone who isn't gonna pamper me loyally during that. what the fuck

not only that. your pathetic ass beats her and she's gonna take it out on your kid. you're progressing the generational abuse cycles instead of breaking them

the other thing... epigenetics is a thing. when she's pregnant her level of health progresses to the baby. inflammation in the womb correlates to autism, schizophrenia, and intellectual disabilities in kids later in life. you're fucking your kid up, stupid. she gets stressed it makes the baby stressed

people black out when under high emotional stress

they still function but the memories get locked behind the abnormal mental state

your brain accesses memories by matching the state under which you made them. which is why it's easier to recall things if you're in the same mood or in the same place

if you have suppression and are irresponsible with your emotions you will black out. idk man sounds like a job for therapy. you're being irresponsible with your own brain and now it's showing up in your everyday life. either this was too far for you and you'll find the will to fix it or it will get worse

@jestdotty I do have a son, and second is on the way

@jestdotty okay

@jestdotty I will do better