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Bubbles
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Okay so this is just a rant about my personal life because if I post it any where else no one will really care.

So I graduated from a vocational high school where I learned about basic IT and networking skills but I mostly focused on my programming. and I LOVED that school honestly the environment was so amazing and everyone and everything about it was amazing. then I started college recently hoping for the same thing and its just depressing me, and my depression is coming back and I cant stop it because I cant distract myself from it. My friends are always off playing Monster Hunter Ultimate and Im just wishing theyd hop back on Warframe so we can play again.. They say they will but they really wont so im usually just playing alone or going online which is sometimes fun if you have people that talk back.

so i took myself to the official warframe discord to find people that would help but everytime I ask I just get ignored. So Im stuck playing alone.

while thats happening Im not really getting any messages from anyone besides my girlfriend which is nice but she isnt able to really keep up a conversation and shes often busy with school as well. when I try to talk to any of my friends they arent really interested to talk or just send short replies that obviously tell me to go away. one friend in particular she and I used to talk everyday not even in a romantic way just straight up besties for life, but after one of my relationships ended she basically took her side and never talks to me now. Ive just been really lonely and wanting to just have my friends talk to me again or just have some programming friends I can chill in a discord server while we code but I cant bring myself to ask anyone on the specific server im in for programming..

Honestly idk if anyone on devrant really looks at my posts and thinks "oh look Bubbles posted again". I feel like im not good enough to be here because Im not nearly as good as all of you, Im mostly just here asking questions or posting extremely fucking long posts no one wants to read. and yet this is still where most of my interactions are and I love that this devRant community makes me laugh or feel better about myself sometimes. and I thank all of you for that and I remember your @ 's all the time.

honestly the only real highlight of my week was when my teacher of my vocational class asked me to come back as an unpaid intern to help teach his new programming class and It made me happy but other than that I havent been too happy.

if anyone actually got through this holy shit youre awesome and thank you a lot its appreciated.

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  • 6
    Wow what an emotional rollercoaster rant.

    I'm sure you'll find some other friends. Idk how it is for you but as an outsider boy, I stick around outsider boys and girls. Makes sense, hm?

    If you enjoyed the time with your teacher, maybe stay in touch with him.

    Try playing an instrument if you don't already - and you have a few spare hours in your week. - It's not my kind of thing but musicians usually like socializing and playing together.

    Collaborate on hobby projects, I used to be part of a Portal 2 modding community. I think it was cool but I personally prefer working alone or in groups of two.

    Or find some connections in the industry your interested in (neworking and programming) - not online only maybe.

    My advice isn't of any professional psychology - rather a few ideas from a school student.
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    Ask someone on this servers where you are about programming it isn't some weird shit just hobby/work it's not like you tell someone weird facts about animal's dick.*

    Try to find progranming related activities in your neighborhood, some jam or something and maybe you will find interesting people there. Its not that easy to find great friends (too much thibgs have to work together) so dont worry, you aren't especially weird it is how it works.

    I love this community too, but it isn't place for chosen of god, a lot of people there has issues and maybe it is how live works... so you are good enough, don't put yourself in spiral of doom (focusing on bad things and ignoring good one and making bad one because of attitude) and if you need someone to talk just @ me ;) me English and responding time aren't great but maybe will be sufficient.

    *ducks dick is spiral like this stuff for opening wine
  • 3
    Bubbles, not everyone here is an all knowing god of programming. Everyone started somewhere 🙂

    Like Omnisus mentioned, finding a friend is hard, the one you call after 5 years of not talking to each other, go for a beer and feel relaxed. That's hard stuff and not always happen.

    @Bubbles, we have a collabs here just for that purpose, it's not that weird to see that a lot of people are like you and need someone to code with 😉
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  • 0
    Thank you to everyone who took the time to comment I'm really grateful and it means a lot to me.
  • 2
    I feel you, I am 16 and have no friends, I go to a private school where most people are either too petty or too stupid to care about anything I am interested as almost all of them are privileged rich kids who think all the rest of us are below them and treat us as such. It's been 2 1/2 years since I last had a friend, I spend my days coding, watchong some series, reading, trying some math textbooks, playing bass or drums and smoking cigarettes, I know that living like that will just result in problems bit I have no other choice.
  • 1
    @HRT-713 dude I feel your struggle, like no lie. The fact we have to go through stuff like this sucks but we have to believe itll get better or it never will
  • 2
    I'm bad at comforting people, but you seem like a nice guy. I don't have any advice to give you though since I'm happy with having no friends, but stay strong man. Hardships are always over one day (almost).

    I'll be honest, I had never read your rants up until now, but you made me want to. See you on another one maybe :P
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    @TheOct0 thank you I appreciate the effort :)
  • 3
    I just wanna say hang in there. And hey if you're interested and have time to learn a new language I'm thinking about learning Julia and would love some company
  • 1
    I hope you bubble up through this 😅
  • 1
    Connecting on all the levels but the gaming; not really into games though but learning programming and yeah, I'm even less expert than you are 😂. I have no friends either 😅
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    @ThatDannyBoy I have a list of languages to learn
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    @daniem10 Puns are very appreciated
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    I get you pal, I'm in the exact same boat! :) Except for the fact that my technical high school sucks balls and I can't wait to head off to Uni (which is great where I live). I'm always alone as well, playing and coding on my own all day when I don't have to study. Suggestion? Keep pushing, it's all about endurance :)
  • 1
    Maybe a devrant discord server? That way bunch of us can communicate over there, have regular conversations and talk :D
  • 1
    @TheItalianGuy oh my, it's great to see another technical student. I'm sorry yours isnt good I wish it was better for you. If it makes you feel better I didnt get to always program in school most of it was IT and Networking stuff basically a lot of hardware
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    @ArcaneEye I've always not been popular so that's not a problem, I do have a few small friend groups but i cant program with them and we dont always play games together which blows
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    @ZoLe I was apart of one already. It's a good idea in theory but trust me that server dies so soon
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    @Bubbles Pleasure's mine :) It's my last year so I'll just endure it :P Again, best wishes for your studies and remember that self learning is the best way to integrate what you do at school with more interesting stuff :)
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    @TheItalianGuy I hope your last year is somewhat enjoyable, and yeah agreed my knowledge came from self learning basically as well
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