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> this one job post is like, "a history of delivering high quality software" uh no one ever has that?
You're probably making higher quality than whoever they are imagining if you're surviving in rust land ;P (also, business will never truelly let you write that "high quality software" XD)
Glad you're feeling a bit happier and figuring out what helps to make things better.
And been there with the optimism, luckily haven't really been burned by people in that regard just stuff, and it would just end up being absolutely useless or barely used e.g. PSVita.
About the job though, have you considered get a low responsibility position like junior/medior if you just want to get some hours back on the CV (with a bit of cash). Especially if you're still struggling a bit still mentally?
Sending a virtual hug and wishing you good luck -
> 'my best bet is to go back to crypto trading. or just run out of money and go be homeless somewhere'.
Well... you have another option: just find _any_ shitty job you can get so that it pays the bills, while also looking for something in your chosen profession.
I was presented w/ that exact choice - all money that I had saved was almost gone. It was either going broke && homeless, or getting just about any job. I chose the latter, had to suffer for about half a year as a production line worker at a factory. It sucked horribly, w/ a minimum wage salary, but it gave me the time necessary to find something better in my actual profession. -
@BordedDev yeah I want a boring one. junior/medior
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@D-4got10-01 I don't think I qualify for anything -.-
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@jestdotty Qualifications for menial work are very low.
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@AlgoRythm I used to live in Vancouver and that place was so depressing
but I do miss being able to understand things or talk to another person. I don't even remember what it's like -
@D-4got10-01 I'd do menial. what's menial?!
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@jestdotty !sure whether you're joking here. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/... .
I'm so screwed
I don't speak French so I only qualify for remote jobs
bf keeps saying I'm better than I think I am
this one job post is like, "a history of delivering high quality software" uh no one ever has that?
my best bet is to go back to crypto trading. or just run out of money and go be homeless somewhere
doubt I could even solve logic puzzles because my brain is still fucked lol. need to get fat so I can go fasting again because that helped... fucking microglia inflammation for 3 years. but I'm already underweight and now people are skinny shaming me for it even -.-
and I'm coming off the tail-end of someone committing me to a fucking asylum cuz haha crazy people jokes. I'm so mad at that girl. still undergoing withdrawal from the pills which gave me "morbid depression" as I realized lmao. the withdrawal is nothing like my health issues so I don't think I should've even been given those things... inflammation hyperness, tenseness, lack of sleep =\= mania which is just happiness
at least I figured out I'm dependent on eating beef liver every week and that's how I stopped degrading back in January. I'm so tired of being sick and being stuck. I'll die of old age before I endure my way out of all this garbage at this rate
at least my sense of meaning came back. so at least that can comfort me now
really gives me perspective on people who are depressed. I've never in my life been depressed and I can officially say that now, having experienced it from those pills. it's wild to me most people are depressed. they just live like that. without meaning or hope or optimism. no humour 😬
interestingly I now suspect I'm depressed but only in regards to making income for myself. I wonder how that happened. growing up I tried to destroy my optimism because it got me repeatedly into toxic social situations. I gave people more hope than would be rational and the kicker is that I was logically aware of my mistake but I couldn't train myself to have a different personality. I had to catch myself to get out of those situations but I could never be not optimistic, naturally. I could never train the optimism out of myself
but when it comes to income I don't have that same optimism. how did that happen?
everywhere else I feel ok, but in income I'm depressed in my personality
how lol
rant