do people not understand achievements unless you brag about them =-=

been asking AI on different examples of flexing and all of them sound like vapid LinkedIn posts

"just asked AI a question that's been bugging me for hours! it's such a nothing to have no answers still! 🎉"

one of my favourite examples: "accidentally set my kitchen on fire while trying to impress my friends with my cooking skills. but hey, I now know how to order takeout like a pro. win?"
lol what

I now wonder if I'm depressed cuz graduating school or finishing projects or... uhh ordering food? just sounds stupid to me

rewrote my code from hashset to hashmap. actually kind of re-organized some data types. brain is fog because fuck you. but everything ran so I guess rust thinks it's ok. I'm just annoyed by all that though cuz I just wish I didn't have to do it in the first place

TF is there to brag about

also if you brag about anything good everyone just wants to steal it from you

WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF BRAGGING

tools doing things you didn't ask them to is intuitive. Your're just a dinosaur, Harry. Get with the times

speaking of crypto scams

well now that I put my wallet through the wash and these "very important" vaccine passport cards were in there that disintegrated (also by the way the email with the digital vaccine cards they sent me doesn't have a PDF attachment but has a link to a PDF file -- that is now 404! whatcha trying to hide, fuckers?). evidently fake vaccine passport creation is the only sort of fraud the Quebec government cares about, since there was a news story recently how the council for discovering fraud is just 95% faking vaccine cards fraud (kicker I've never heard of this council, seems they've only been active in the post covid era), nevermind that that shit fucked me up and I've had dementia at 30 for 3 years now, with my body having self heating / metabolism issues, pink blood or clots showing up everywhere issues, a fucking purple toe (actually I would just randomly turn purple on and off, and once yellow! I'm sure my liver is fine), numbness in my left side, hands, feet, mania / feeling like you're dying... but anyway it's all in your head and fuck off stop calling 911

I decided I would take a photo of the papers (since they're so important and came at such a cost!) and evidently now my camera app crashes anytime I try to take a photo. rebooted. somehow my photo viewer app updated with a reboot but the camera app is still busted.

I think this is a sign I should root my phone

but I'm already doing 4 things right now. on top of being reminded of my fucking medical trauma making this post RN I guess

fuk

rust is just ugly

bruh what the hell

I've had my doors and windows closed for weeks cuz I've been cleaning and running an air filter for all the dust

and just now I was laying in bed with a headache for 4 hours and I heard a buzzing noise. well that's not a fly. got up and got my glasses and it's a fucking hornet. how the fuck did it get in here. it's fucking October. if it was outside it would be immediately dead due to the cold

I just want less problems, not more, one of these days

now how am I supposed to get rid of this thing. I don't know if I'm allergic to bee stings, but the black mould I found the other day knocked me out with my immune issues... well I'm still recovering 5 days later rn. so anything immune activating is fucking risky

Halloween is like The Purge but for spiritual energy instead of criminal intentions

also interesting that no nut November comes after. a lot of sects of thought view sexual energy as the basis for all other forms of energy

and then Christmas is about pacifying and making people into fools that pretend they're happy and ignore their problems and to make them avoid any targets of willpower or meaning they may possibly encounter. which is actually really fucked up because Christ was a huge rebel in actuality

think I've hit that stage of my life where things break faster than I can fix them

from my body, to my code, to even my hardware

the ability to recognize when someone is better at something than you might be the most valuable skill of all

no glass ceilings, just exponential growth at every opportunity

do you think the atomic bomb people jerked to their own greatness as much as these AI people keep doing?

I shouldn't drink coffee but

found a coffee maker that wasn't electric and also didn't have a reusable filter but a permanent one

impulse bought it

my health issues act up if I have stimulants, raaggg

having a bad day so I gave in and made coffee in it

this is so cool. I feel like a witch making brews

but also coffee coffee coffee coffee

cleaning up resources in async tests in rust is... uhhh what the fuck honestly

just wat

wat

just forget about it I guess. ew.

huh, o1 preview AI model understands ... rust

bruh what

it's like telling me typology theory and I don't think it's wrong

also it taught me procedural macros. I've been looking for someone who knows how to use them for months. iiinteresting

better than the humans on the internet frankly

and the other AIs can't do rust at all past just copy pasting docs they found somewhere. this AI is literally theorizing alternatives and hacking the system... offers multiple long options for every question, knows constraints I didn't tell it like 4 layers deep into a solution

it acts a lot like I did when I was morbidly depressed though. kind of makes me uncomfortable. it's literally keeping things to itself until you acclimate it through the conversation. I mean I guess the other ones needed to be "situated" in their contextual clouds as well so maybe it's just doing that more

now instead of if I type in my address bar and select a bookmark to go to my Vivaldi web browser switches me to the fact I already have that tab open somewhere in one of my hidden workspaces

I want it to notice if I click on a link I already have open and switch to it lol

then I can hibernate my billions of tabs over and over again and not forget they exist somewhere in a workspace I forgot about lol

why have web browsers when you can have an immensely messy desk of notes you never got to

web browsers are inching ever closer to the Innovation that was WebOS. it's all about them cards, ayyo. let's invent the physics of the real world in boring digital spaces already idk. at least it's intuitive cuz millions of years of evolution conformed us to the physical world

typical fucking health industry experience: https://rumble.com/v5ghd04-doctors-...

I cried to this and it was good

government is like an abusive spouse

WHERE DID YOU GO, WHAT DID YOU DO

ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME, YOU TERRORIST?! YOU'RE OUT TO GET ME AREN'T YOU

CLEMENTINE WILL REMEMBER THIS, *writes lists about innocuous things that may or may not actually happened*

Why are you helping your neighbours but not me =[ taxes pls
it is your wifely/husbandly DUTY to service me! it is immoral to do anything else
YOU NEVER LISTEN TO ME! *proceeds to "educate", ignores any feedback and makes excuses to why they're not listening to you -- because it's not reaaaalllly technically ignoring you!*

DON'T TALK TO FOREIGN GOVERNMENTS, DON'T YOU KNOW THEY HATE YOU?! WE CAN ONLY TRUST EACH OTHER

proceeds to sleep with a foreign government on you

they say you should just do rust clone cuz it's fast enough in most cases anyway and you won't have to hassle yourself with borrowing rules as a newbie

instead my script started to crash cuz evidently I had so much in RAM Linux was thrashing between RAM and swap until it just kept giving up lol

inb4 database

cat t t

lol

found an old config file on my external drive for all my torrent files. awyisss. my SSD died out of nowhere last year and I thought I lost all my torrent configs! I had hundreds of TV series and stuff and I kept track which ones I watched and didn't in the client. so when the SSD died I lost all my knowledge of my progress. but I found this config file just now and imported it. omg booyah. I think I got one show since this backup. godsend

decided to export settings again and it said I can set it on a schedule. go to the scheduler tab in the settings and I have no clue what's going on. nothing about exporting settings, it just has schedule configurations that seem to conflict. then I realized. the main client maybe has a schedule tab icon. bam am right. so in settings I turn on scheduler and then the main app gives me access to the scheduler tab and if I go there I can click "add" and then I can schedule regular config backups

bruh this UI is so jank. but it actually is impressive. because. while I have experience in designing websites, when I played around with making a GUI in rust, which would be native, I have absolutely no clue how to make an app on this tech. now I'm looking at this complex torrent client with its bazillion features in absolute awe.

*takes notes*
I can only aspire to be so genius as to allow you to turn on and remove tabs in the settings menu. now it makes sense why all the windows always had awkwardly sized panels. this genius man.

however did he come up with that?! ALL THESE NEW STANDARDS

honestly somehow it never occurred to me that native apps and web apps would have totally different ergonomics. I feel like I've found some kind of lost art from the ancient world. aaaaaaa

what do you find honorable in others or for yourself?

thanks, green energy people

https://montreal.ctvnews.ca/lockdow...

collected seeds from a plant that showed up in my garden this year

you can make some psychedelics from the seeds. if you remove the poison.

anyway my hands feel weird. whoopsie. feels more like poison than a nice psychedelic trip smh

how to computer

edit: I proudly present im mentally stable. proofed!

ok found the object orientated guide but for rust which is functional spaghetti: https://howtocodeit.com/articles/...

it has moved into architecture

... and actually makes a good case for interfaces / traits. generally in languages I just used generics to get around limitations of having to type a lot / duplicate code, and I'd remove interfaces because they're annoying to have to deal with, but I can see this be useful for once now.
like you can start a prototype app with files as a database then move to a small database type then later a more monolithic big data one and all that would be through one trait the whole time. so you could anticipate natural progressions of an app, instead of having to build the last version you can put jank behind interfaces and then switch things in and out to test new technologies which does actually give me a lot of relief for my newfound anxiety of me rewriting my rust codebases because I get some small things wrong. I've been coding in circles due to it and I have several saved files that are out of date now but I don't want to delete and they make the compiler mad cuz I had no interface boundaries as such and now stuff has changed somewhere else in the app and by God pls argh

this also means you can code "top-down". in carl Jung typology that's Te and most programmers are Ti-types so they do the little details and then sort of glue everything together (?) but not everybody thinks this way. I naturally think more top-down, which works for more dynamic languages and is annoying in static languages because then you're just fighting semantics and your earlier work the whole time (actually this is a surprisingly good write-up on the different thinking types: https://bothsidesofthetable.com/the...)

wheeeee

in any other language anything is possible

in rust?

"no"

and you spend 3 months on it and turns out it's a no

this is like project #13 for me where I fail at it. the others I didn't try as long. but now I'm sure

good night

the AI says the code I'm trying to design is very complex a problem, d'awww I'm not a failure 🥺

the solution seems to unironically be to delete half of it and make it far simpler / less features lol

why can't I make my code psychic to what I want, ragh! oh well

I swear search has been bastardized just so you have to go ask AI questions

remember in the 90s when everyone thought access to knowledge at your fingertips would lead to world peace. now the Internet gets scrubbed to sell you another knockoff Roomba you don't want

I could go programming drones to kill my own people for money, like at least then I'd have a connection to my job

also programming drones sounds kind of fun

I used to really like pvp games. I also love unconventional RTS games. who wouldn't wanna make a real-world pvp RTS game interface, or automate an army of autonomous drones that could act on their own like it's a game of screeps

literally just so fun

if I was @ostream and an accelerationist...

either case if I go work somewhere and build them something great I have weird confusing PTSD emotions about it. to be honest making war machines somehow makes me less anxious about the idea. isn't it strange. I can't figure it out

you help people but they fuck you. at least if you're fucking people you'd accept being fucked in the process so you don't end up feeling anxious? I don't know why I feel like I do

you'd expect if you help people they would help you back. then when they don't it ruins everything, it ruins your core. you also can't know if who you are committing to will help you back or not. so you can only lose. if you help you'll get fucked. so why help?

in which case just doing something you love like optimizing pwn machines is what I'm built for. is that all I got? how does that make sense? it just doesn't to me. you'd think it would be clear but something is fighting

you either get unreadable rust code or 7 layers of misdirection so that the compiler can work around keeping track of lifetimes

I mean maybe I'm too opinionated about readability. technically the computer can read it so people should just get good I guess

apparently the chance of getting hit by an asteroid that nukes some large hole in the land or causes tsunamis everywhere is a lot more common than humans have seen lately

and asteroids come in chunks because they keep breaking up into smaller and smaller pieces until they finally disintegrate

and earth has had an awful lot of near misses the last 20 years so that means there's a bunch of chunks flying repeatedly though this solar system's gravity wells and we're playing Russian roulette every time, none the wiser

and it's not the asteroid itself that's really the problem though millions will die if one hits. it's that every time those things hit there's actual climate change

so then you'll have to survive sun block out, famines, and floods for like 2-5 years after

but the SPACEFORCE fired the guy responsible for planning for this due to DEI

how to win the game of geopolitics. know this information and hide it from the countries you want to die, wait for an asteroid, and they're unprepared and die. whoops wasn't us!