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TIL empathy I've always had is auras
I am an idiot
ok time for a crazy story
so I've been sick 3 years. when I got sick I went to the hospital and I couldn't explain to the doctor what my issue was in a way he would understand. I hadn't slept in 2 weeks and couldn't, and it had all started with a weird headache (which was neither a migraine because I had those before, and my BF thought maybe it was a stroke but the doctor said no it was a migraine even tho migraines do not feel like that). one of the things the doctor couldn't seem to comprehend is how I said I didn't have "space" in my head anymore. he just totally ignored that. I kept coming back to the hospital and trying to all the different people. I was confused, exhausted, had to keep pacing or i felt myself fading out, felt my "consciousness" nearly going "lights out" all the time (like a shade was being closed on my eyes). had weird electrolyte misbalance issues which made me pee out a lot of water and then the consciousness lights out feeling would modulate. my resting heart rate was 110 whereas before I couldn't even get it over 80 exercising lol, not to mention I always had conscious control over it and yet here I didn't -- nurses tried to get me to meditate and it wouldn't work! I also had to say all my thoughts out loud and couldn't think in my own head. my whole world became "flat". prior to this I thought in spatialness -- I could generate and simulate 3d+ dimensions in my head, like dreamscapes, I could simulate visuals, textures, sounds, smells, even turns out mix foods I've had or invent totally new tastes from aspects of foods I knew existed. apparently not everyone can do this (I didn't know at the time). I also could simulate empathy in there and other more complex stuff. I lost all that. strangely I couldn't empathy feel IRL people's emotions anymore either (which was always trivial for me before, it was harder for me not to). nor could I understand what they were saying to me anymore. I could see them LITERALLY say it but I couldn't understand. it was weird. I didn't know it at the time and it only occurred to me weeks later that I was "alone" (disconnected I just realized). I have NEVER felt alone in my life before. now I understand
about 9 months ago I started getting my intuition back. so I can ask in my head for advice and a voice will aswer or sensate nudge me in a direction. this inspired me to look into witches, since I was sick and witches do herbs and stuff. why not. everybody kept saying psychosomatic. well magic-type shit is psychosomatic, clearly? if it works it works. I ain't gonna question it
I started practicing it and etc but didn't really get it. but now I am understanding so much
so the whole reason why that doctor didn't understand is because all of those abilities come from the soul... my whole life I've been empathetic and mind-reading. I can even read someone's intentions and thoughts from their texts. and this isn't like projection-stuff (though now I understand better how that works also... which I never could before. I studied psychology for a bit after a bad job situation but projection had never made sense to me)
you can hear words and not see the mental images associated with them. this means you're disconnected from your mental plane, ignoring it, maybe because it's fucked up which was the case with me. I have absolutely no clue what the fuck rammed me. but I've been meditating and fixing my soul-realms (etheric, astral, mental... and I regained access to the casual! now I understand why people acted confused when I could tell the future! cuz they can't hear the casual realm yet!)
and I was looking into reiki healing. everybody seems to have the opinion that you could just send "healing energy". while true this is immensely exhausting. apparently reiki is literally "rei" the god-consciousness of life (like spanky) moves "ki" which is energy. so you connect to rei, figure it out, and suddenly you can channel rei... sounds cool
as I was listening to a chick describe reiki and reiki concerns... I fucking figured out how empathy works. and why my life's been fucked. d'oh. this magic shit solves everything13 -
the omniverse is a pretty and magical place. magnificent. nothing better
or whatever we wanna call it
why is it a cube lmao
or tesseract. whatever
WHAT ARE THESE MYSTERIES10 -
so everyone seems to get brainwashed already and doesn't mind it
does it mean humans consent to brainwashing implicitly? 🤔
humanity, do I have your consent to brainwash you? 😁
why else would you let other things brainwash you? 🤔7 -
> Cynics and pessimists are a quite similar breed, however. Some animals, when cornered, fight to the death. Other animals roll over, resigned to their fate. The cynic, early in life, does not get the answers he wishes. The pessimist, too, realizes that the life he wants will not be handed to him. Both find themselves too weak or too cowardly to press on, despite these initial setbacks, and they then play the next logical role: that of the perpetual naysayer. This way nothing can hurt them. They know nothing, so their knowledge is safe and secure from refutation. They want nothing, therefore their desire is never thwarted. They hate nothing, and therefore can never be attacked and overpowered by an enemy. They love nothing, and are thus never in fear of losing their beloved, losing hope. So afraid of life, they cease living, and derive their power from the blanket criticism of all things – and yet they do not die, do they? They continue to eat and breathe, a hero and sage in their own minds. They are like a child who quits a game of checkers after losing the first two pieces. The only reason I write of them here and now is because I have this tendency in myself and am sympathetic to it, though I have no patience for it. There is room for these people in life, perhaps, but not in magic. Cynics never question their cynicism and pessimists never sour of their ennui. They are best left to their mud pond – at least when they look in the muddy pool, the reflection is somewhat undistorted. You need not worry about these things, however. You have a sky to see – blue changing into black.2
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> What is your mind and where is your memory? You cannot take your finger and point to where these are. Our best scientists cannot tell us, but we know they exist. Memories do not exist in the physical brain. Any part of the brain can be removed without removing any memories. Half the brain can be removed without losing any memories in an operation called a hemispherectomy. People who have this operation before they have completed puberty will recover with only a slight limp. There is no impairment of short-term or long-term memory. So where are the memories stored?
... I mean it also doesn't make mathematical / physical sense6 -
apparently there's benevolent lizards and they actually have decent "reprogramming self" advice. like immunity to being eaten by the malevolent lizards which feed off fear and apparently anger (though they never fed on my anger... so I took why my anger can never be fed on and added it to the fear and now I can feel fear without getting pulled)
but really I don't know what's wrong with me. there's something in there that's just violently lashing out at everything like a cornered animal. and I don't even know why it's triggering. I don't think I existed with this before I had gotten sick. it's like sharp claws in a fuzzy ball like how one would imagine cats being just rapid razorblades. so fast and vicious
and even past that it's like. how do you even trust random aliens in the universe. humans are so shitty so why would they be any better? do they all parrot repeatedly what their authority figures tell them, also? do they manipulate each other? my dogma or eat shit kind of attitude? you do what they want or they try to outsmart you, domineer you?
I talked to the angels and they felt authoritarian. I don't know if that was something telling me that or they really are that way. and the demons trick you. at least I can respect that. maybe I'm just traveling on the wrong stream
met a guy irl and he was like, "nooo, my brother comes to visit us to see us?!". I was so confused. he doesn't use you? he just likes you? and here my last HR from a company, when my boss was abusing me and I conceptualized it as her not liking me, went at me for mentioning that I conceptualized it as her not liking me as if if anybody wants to be liked it should be shameful (I wasn't even saying that I wanted it... it was just fact to me, it was the literal diagnostic problem). she told me it's not about being liked. like it's somehow shameful to want to have a good atmosphere, to have a reason to have a cooperative atmosphere... and I don't actually know if everyone prior to this incident was using me the whole time and I just didn't notice it. since all those relations did eventually fall through for one reason or another -- either I left cuz they wanted to force something too hard, or they left because I refused to do what they wanted or wasn't "as they already wanted"
sigh5 -
guys, remember, don't think
the establishment and authority, your peers, your boss, your company, the whole corporate, economic structure as approved by government... if you try to think instead of nodding. you're the problem
don't think, man
no thinky1 -
I don't like how tech companies are advertising they will sell you "peace of mind"
better question is why did you take it away in the first place, eh? so if you took it away in the first place why would I trust you to fix the issue you caused? talk about insanity, doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results1 -
if doctors were any good you wouldn't be sleeping 12 hours a day and still having mania, defying their "we are so smart you're the problem" theories
I hate society8 -
guys dancing salsa is like a shamanic magical trip that changes your life forever and gives you Buddhist-level enlightenment
just saying11 -
ever meet a person and he's very interesting but then his retarded girlfriend gets in the way
I hate
I'm not even interested in him this way. now their relationship broke up and he's disappeared and I'm so mad. I wanted to nerd out about occultism not get sucked into some fucking insecure kink whore's sexual drama oh my God. she made him feel bad and self destruct and I don't wanna date him so now I have to wait for him to get over it so I can talk to him and nerd out about shit again. I hate9 -
> By designing nudges that align with students' goals and cognitive processes, educators can effectively support students in reaching their full potential and improving their academic performance
remember kids. your full potential is dictated by others, not by you
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an economy where jobs hide their salaries is confusing
you want people with skills but you refuse to signal how much you want people with those skills
if you actually are clear and honest about how much you want those skills, people would learn those skills to sell them to you...
but instead they would rather play poker and tell you they don't want the skills... while complaining to someone else (government, universities, whatever) behind citizen's backs about how lazy the average citizen is for not having the skills -- yet they refuse to disclose how much they want said skills to make said skills a target for the citizen to want to achieve to receive the incentive of the moneys that citizens require for living
self-fulfilling retardation
deception is the root of all evil I swear14 -
Unless in severe pain, the cat will always enjoy this eternal moment, proud of its existence. Never questioning its needs, desires, likes or dislikes, a cat will never consider evaluating itself. The cat glories in its existence and lives with supreme self esteem. It so values itself that it will never assign a value to itself.
The cat has risen entirely above the need for self esteem through perfect self acceptance beyond the need for self esteem.6 -
you're not allowed to hack computers, you get a felony for that
but hacking human brains is totally fine7 -
I think video comments are probably going to go into vogue at some point
commentator content is just someone watching stuff and then making videos of their replies to it. it's really weird but it does pretty well even though the commentator isn't even anyone special
but if there was a service where you could just reply with videos... would feel more human and become less isolating and more natural compared to current internet
probably next evolution of the internet and these media platforms3 -
TFW it's 10am... you've already watched your news, gardened, showered, and did all your laundry, and you literally had to wait for the grocery store to open so you could have your one big dinner for the day, and the postman is taking forever with that package he says will arrive today, and you also have to go to another store for some items but you're actually too sleepy to care now zzz...
now I can be the one dunking on everyone saying they're too slow! HOW'D YOU LIKE THAT1 -
that urge to go work for AI smart city data surveillance green energy people
I disagree with them but because I disagree I like wanna be a spy lol5 -
rust has taught me discipline
my life-long disposition to laziness is suddenly no more
I hate it, thanks
I've always viewed the unlazy and highly disciplined as a loser class. now what3 -
so good to go back to code you wrote 6 years ago, and realize you improved both its readability and its computation complexity in a more recent rewrite
it's like you won bingo against yourself or something1 -
... lol ask AI to solve math problem
it says it's X and Y called math problem, and has no solution
while I'm reading that, I figure out the solution
AIs are so dumb they're giving me arrogance5 -
really hate how they keep using the word equity everywhere
an AI just used it to describe some process prioritization code I handed it to summarize
that is not at all relevant here...10 -
> Your concern is entirely valid—naming can significantly affect how intuitive a concept feels. The term "object safe" in Rust might seem odd or even misleading if we approach it from a traditional object‑oriented perspective.
can rust please stop trying to be "different" for the sake of being different. Dumbest thing. Just call things what they are. What's the point of words if you're not actually accurately using them. Especially for a programming language, which is based on math and logical systems. Like how. Why. Stop. Antithesis to the mindset that should be making languages to begin with if you can't do logic with the words that already exist. Horrible sales pitch. Are they trying to confuse people on purpose, make moats so nobody learns it? is this self-sabotage?
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I have bludgeoned an AI on this matter. I feel kind of bad. It tried to ad hominem me and then tell me I'd get it if I wasn't so new, and that it's a perfectly valid name because it's in the "reference guide". Called it out on appeal to authority and now it's just saying my argument points back at me like it's groveling. Sigh.
And it's hallucinated thinking I'm the whole online community giving critiques on this matter now, therefore my points are valid, lmao1 -
> This is indeed a well-known architectural challenge—the "tying together" of heterogeneously typed objects with their matching data—often referred to as a variant of the Expression Problem
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> The expression problem is a challenging problem in programming languages that concerns the extensibility and modularity of statically typed data abstractions. The goal is to define a data abstraction that is extensible both in its representations and its behaviors, where one can add new representations and new behaviors to the data abstraction, without recompiling existing code, and while retaining static type safety (e.g., no casts). The statement of the problem exposes deficiencies in programming paradigms and programming languages, and as of 2023 is still considered unsolved,[citation needed] although there are many proposed solutions
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why do I always
also this is easy as pie in javascript. No wonder it was my favourite language. you're just so free to express yourself. DUNCHU SEE?!28