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irene
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Sometimes I feel awful for not having desires to be better and successful. All I want is just retaining current status quo, but occasionally I feel like garbage.

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  • 7
    I relate to this
  • 4
    It's cloudy weather talking 😁
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  • 0
    @netikras not really. It's not that tied to weather. Just sometimes I remember how I don't fit into human society.
  • 1
    at least you're feeling something..
  • 0
    @lazyDev sometimes I feel nothing
  • 1
    Still learning?
  • 0
    @jespersh I'm not a student anymore
  • 2
    @irene doesn't mean you stop learning. If it feels like you're constantly learning and never seeing an end, then it can feel nice to stay with status quo
  • 0
    @jespersh I don't feel that way.
  • 1
    Well don't feel too bad about it, there's this idea in STEM (an probably on other areas as well) that you gotta be remarkable and a visionary (an exaggeration from my part probably) but sometimes you just want peace and stability in your life, and that's okay, we all can have different goals :)
  • 0
    @Arias95 I don't have any goals either ._.
  • 1
    Feels similar lately.

    Objectively, there's incredible amount of awesome things in IT industry and even few great people to network with.

    Subjectively, when you dive into it, you find barely working stuff, hackish approach where shouldn't be any, consumer trends driving everything to hell in the name of increased stock prices and code falling apart through 0days.

    Hate where the industry is heading. It ended shaping every part of the world. The joke how Zuck wanted to rank and contact girls and ended up creating one of the biggest social/geopolitical tools. Trend across all domains. From malware pranks to cyberterrorism. From toys to semi-AI bending the financial markets.

    On one hand - the craving to remain current. To invest myself into all the new technologies. On the other - resent for the trends, changes and upcoming future. Is it worth to throw away last 20 years learning all the stuff and move to a different industry? There is no way escaping computers anyway.
  • 0
    @qwwerty short version: we're fucked?
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    @irene no idea. I, quite sure, am. Feels like nothing is ever complete. So overwhelmed by the new stuff the industry generates every day, that there is no way to learn it all. At the end of the day, i have no will to learn anything new at all and all the stuff i do is just because i must, not because i want and enjoy.

    Frustration, stagnation, resignation, letargy

    ....could have been a separate rant, as it might not quite match with the issues you're dealing with.
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