A lot of the skills I use at work are actually learned on my own time. And a lot of the time, it feels like I trying to drag the team forward but everyone else does things that drag them, and thus me as well, backwards.

There's always work but most of it is low value and there's just less and less time to make things better because no one else has any opinion of how things should be...

Maybe I should just give up... Again....

I really need to find a better job or at least one without so much technical debt.

Feels like actually my PM is exactly like the name of in Phoenix Project... But I guess he'll never take any meaningful action.

But when I'm not sure what that is... Guess it really is hiring the right people and doing things right from the start, it at least fixing them immediately.

**END internal monologue and summary**