I don't believe, that I could ever be hired as a software developer... I want to die. I want to die as soon as possible... Fuck this all! Fuck this shitty fucking Life!!!

Same here bro

What the fuck? What do you even mean?

Software development might not be for you. People should understand that sometimes you are just not good enough for something, and that's fine. I for example am not good in driving and that's why I don't drive a car. Software and driving are dangerous as both if done poorly can cause death. :)

Why do you feel like that?

Nothing last forever, and that includes frustration. I think you'll be surprised at how differently you feel once you have another year or two under your belt.