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life becomes sulking when you have no support.

1. bought a new car. finally everything went good and i was able to get out of the infinite loop of anxiety : "where would i park?" "fights with neighbour" , "how to become confident after learning to drive in driving schools?" , efc

2. on delivery day, a friend helped park the new car near home. the plan was that from next day , we will start taking classes on self car with a car trainer

3. this morning, i took a class with car trainer alongside my mom as she wanna learn too. she used to drive somewhat shakily 10 years ago.
She got scared seeing me to drive. i was driving fine as the trainer hmmself didn't scolded me anything. i was driving at 30kmph on empty roads, while she is trained to drive at 10-15kmph. whe she drove, her driving was full of jerks and sudden break/clutch release, but i remained mum

4. later on, one of my friend also rejected going with me for driving. and the car trainer is also citing some time issues for next few days. i am now stuck with:

- a brand new car wrapped under sheets with no future for getting out

- a driving license in my wallet that will keep on taking dust as i would rarely be allowed to ever take my car out for a 60km drive to office.

-some overly anxious parents trying to take out my morale

- a sad me. when will the life give me a chance to fuckin grow up?

i have cracked the IT for fuck's sake. i started from peanuts salary, and worked my way to a great package, i am a person who understands how to live. why the fuck can't i learn this skill

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  • 1
    time to move out lol
  • 7
    Sorry, but have a chance to grow up, right now. As at any other time. If it's a problem having your barely-able-to-drive mother in the car criticising you, then go driving without her. If you don't drive very well - or even competently - book yourself some lessons with a driving instructor. An available one. Not an unavailable one. You might find that the previous instructor suddenly has some time free if he/she knows your mother won't be part of the process! Take charge and do what needs to be done.
  • 2
    Are you South Asian? Because I have similar problems too.
  • 2
    What country is this. How can you have a driving license but not be able to drive a car?
  • 2
    When I first got my license, my dad wouldn't let me touch his car (it was a nice one) and my mother wouldn't let me *stop* driving her car.
    I kid you not, once she had me go back to the 5km away market FOUR TIMES IN THE SAME DAY because she kept forgetting things we needed back home.
    I'm the oldest of four children, she saw me getting a license as her own delivery service.
    Then I got a letter of acceptance for college half a world away and still have not lived with them again, nor do I plan on it until my own kids are old enough to complain about having to drive.

    Lesson is, those are parents. Their worldview is limited when it relates to you (some special space-warping gravity scenario right there). So when you have the maturity, means and opportunity, you gotta snap them out of that tunnel vision.
    At this moment, your neighborhood or even your hometown is too small for all of you. Use that IT brain to find another place (pod?) for the next few years.
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