Your wife is savage and I love it. Where can you get custom boom binding like that?
Really I love her style. Wish we could be friends. Lol

You've got a point. I was always sort of admiering the people who can pull this off and felt more inferior. But damn I got a life to live and it contains more than coding. For example 100 dentistry appointments! (Ugh...)
On another note, I do admire people who work a certain set of hours qnd then are done with it and go home no matter what.

@piratefox I'm stuck working with it apperently for a while now. It just kinda happened. Lol.

Yeah same. Just wanted to join the ranting. Worked with Android Studio a while ago and damn it felt huge. Also I generally hate java. It's so ugly. I know Kotlin exists but back then I had to work with Java. Heared Kotlin is much nicer.

This is a tough one. It feels like Microsoft is trying at least more than the others to be more open source friendly. They have nice offers for students and it's nice that I can develop and app just like this, without having to pay for just trying to develop it myself (looking at you apple).

It feels like one gets a lot out of MS office, even the payed version, compared to some other software out there.

I dunno. I guess I have mixed feelings about them but I really like some of their products.

Since most people already gave really good ideas about how to try and fix the job problem, I'll try to adress the depression.

I have a friend who had a burnout and depression. What helped her most is to get into a good day rhythm. A fixed schedule with fixed wakeup and bed times. Try to find one positive thing in your day. And be it something small, like, "I had a nice coffee". That will be enough to make your brain think more positive over time. I know it sounds stupid but it helps.

Job wise: Try other fields. Teaching is hard but can be very rewarding. Try looking on a global scale for jobs. As a dev home office is a good option worlwide.

Otherwise: Keep going strong. You will find a job and it will work out for you. Don't give up. And if you feel like you need to talk or vent to random people, we are here :)

@piratefox *laughs in Unreal*

Unity is a godsent by comparison.

- own types for basic types becasue sure why not

- build system is utter bs. Good luck adding third party libraries

- your third party library contains header files without the h extension? yep, not found. ( Looking at you Eigen) Go and rename them all.

- Building a project for the first time takes forever. Windows declares UE dead, but nah, it's compiling. might just take 45 min. it ain't frozen, it's just pretending. Don't listen to the task manager

- Physics assets? unclear af.

- Tutorials? Outdated. There are 23 versions at least.

- Made changes to GUI elements in your code? restart engine since otherwise it won't load. Very fun when working on Blueprints

- Needed a cooling pad for the laptop with 6 fans because heat generation when running this is crazy.

- Library build with Cmake? UE can't build it, even though it uses VS and VS can. Have to build it externally.

I've probably forgotten a few things.

@Fast-Nop thank you a lot for your comment. Unfortunately we are a research group so there is not much in terma of management that I can go to. So what ends up happening is that I run to all the devs, gather info on how to use and setup their stuff, then I write a tutorial on it because either I'm asked to do so or I do it for my own future self. Then they send me other students so that I can help them setup that stuff. Rinse and repeat. ^^"

@IntrusionCM thanks ^^ I'm trying to be respectful even if I get emotional sometimes. What happenes to me a lot and what makes me mad, is that I try to find a solution, get stuck, send an email about it, then find a solution... I hate this. I literally stare at the email for like an hour going through stuff in my head wondering what else I can do to fix my problem. I dont come up with anything, decide to send the mail and then boom. Solution. T_T

@IntrusionCM i try to make my questions as precise as possible and I did spend a lot of time on a previous version of this tool so I do know roughly how it works. But it has grown a lot and there are many features of which I have no idea what the hell they are supposed to do or how to even get it to run.

Also, since people want this to be used by external users at some point, documentation will be needed anyway so why not put in some effort now, and have me and others test it while we need to get familiar with it anyway? It can only make things better

does working while being a student count when I staretd developing prior?

Then I worked at the local kart track, selling tickets and drinks. It was nice but also stressfull at times. I left because the working hours got rediculous and were were understaffed on the weekends (meaning 14 and 12h shifts, both saturday and sunday, + 1h traveling there and another hour traveling back) for minimum wage.

Once you get the hang of it, it is nice and relaxing. You don't need to think much. But doing that every day would get boring. It made for some nice stories to tell at parties though.

Also worked (and kinda still do) at the local planetarium. It is nice and one gets another field to study and look into.

Edit: Oh ye, you learn to never be bitchy or mean to service industry people.

I think it highly depends on where you work. Since I'm currently in research, i'd say there are no boundaries at all on pings. Never have been.

I admire the people who can separate work and life clearly, but I can't.

Congratulations!!! It would be a dream to have so much more space. We are working on it but it will still be a while.

try to see something positive in every day and after a while you kinda train your brain with this to see something positive everywhere?

It was recommended to me to get a notebook, in which I would write down something nice that happened that day, every day. It can be super small like, "the weather was nice" or "I had a nice coffee". And because you do this on a regular basis you train your brain into being more overall positive.

On the other hand, I thought that once i have my masters I would feel like a weight got lifted of my shoulders. well, that didn't happen. At all. Which makes me sad...

@notSoCoolGuy aw sorry to hear that you didn't get the contract.

Unity is much more straight forward and the tutorials are much better. Unreal has so many versions now it is all over the place.

@JFK422 lol. I don't feel any smarter though. .-.

and thanks guys! <3

thank you all ^^ :D:D:D

@AlmondSauce I didn't sleep for 2 nights straight and it's a crazy state afterwards. it's like being drunk and everything I do was in slow motion and needed a lot of effort. needed to focus on the simplest tasks. and everyone around me seemed hecktick to me. it was a crazy few days.

@devdiddydog well in my case it was League of Legends to be played but yeah.

Well actually, i got caught up on bugs so much that i couldn't sit down and write earlier. Regretable choices have been made. And i really regret not writing the chapter on the code that is done since months already. Fk past me...q.q

Also: wht the fuck do I always end up with crazy topics involvijg like 10 different tools, all research based, and all in different programming languages. Goddamit.

I'd say I'm creative and have good intuition. I suck at maths. Used to be good at it till uni happened xD

@Root thanks. I'll need it^^

@Wisecrack yeah. He is into tech a lot and I look a lot like him. I used to watch him fix stuff. ^^

We've grown apart a bit since that's what happenes when you get older, but we sometimes take care of our computers together. He does the hardware issues I do the software.

hold on, so our business partners who set up teams for us are watching me write my thesis? hahahahahah

@hbr147 yeah true. I feel the same.

@hbr147 those are the most painful bugs aren't they. Where one just lets out a deep sigh after fixing it.

@Nanos compose your own notifications sounds! like back in the old days I'd spend hours on that music maker program the phone came with.

Actually, what happened to those? Sony Ericcson had them by default and you could write your own ringtones with it (more like, sample, but whatever). It was lots of fun.

I used to make ringtones for my dad and he would actually use them <3

@Makenshi maybe. Or maybe someone accidentally pulled it out with their foot or something. who knows? it is to forever be a mystery....

tbh I'd probably smack you for having notification sounds on all the time. Annoying af. I'm sorry.

thanks to a very nice collegue who took time of his day to go and check on my pc (it is a very busy time right now), it was determined that *somehow* the lan cable was unplugged. What the f. Who the f unplugs Lan cables from running pc's in Corona times, where half the office is working remotely....

well, at least it was an easy fix.

@ilPinguino how could I have missed it. Damn. Or my memory really sucks.

@eo2875 it's an escape room game, but instead of getting the usual normal box full of clues, the entire thing is a puzzle box. So you need to solve the box essentially to win the game.

https://amazon.de/gp/product/...

we have a ton of the other exit games already so this is pretty much perfect :)