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Today I dont feel that good.

I have only 1 month of my holiday temporary job left. After that Im going to university, the place that i have been dreaming about, the place where finaly i would finish my projects, where i would meet people like me that could support, help me with my passions.

I have no idea where i got that wave of saddnes. Normaly i dont feel that way. Job is unconfortable and sometimes stressing a bit but it is not the end of the world.

I just want to stay in confy bed for the whole day but i cant, i need that money for uni.

I tried to code yesterday but i just couldnt focus! Always when i try to finish the project, no matter what it is i just lose my motivation, its just gone.

Sometimes I wonder if that university is going to be as good as i was imaginig it, after numerous rants on devrant about their uni im not so sure... That dosent help me with my mood.

Is my terrible mood caused by loneiness? bad diet? or lazyness?
I just dont know... I just want to feel better. I just want to survive that month somehow, without that crushing feeling and constant depression.

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  • 5
    So if I understand this correctly, it's your first year at uni, correct?

    If so, seems like you're nervous about the big transition you're fixing to make. I understand it.

    My first two weeks at uni, I just stayed in my room and watched TV. I'd do homework, watch TV and sleep. Didn't even eat. I'd eat a single meal a day and that was it. Maybe a few snacks, but rarely.

    So again, if you're nervous about the transition, don't be. Most people paint professors as horrible human beings that don't care about you (can't speak for your country, but I can speak for my experience) but most really do care. The people are often really nice, after all, you're all there for the same part.

    Just try to make friends and stay busy. It'll distract you from any negative feelings you have.
  • 2
    I think i know what you are going through. See the first thing is people often fuck up present when constantly thinking about the future. In this case you aren't able to code and focus on your current work. I'll suggest you to just take complete rest for one day and do something you like maybe "movies","cycling""jogging" anything which totally consumes you. Next day from fresh mokd work on the project again.
    The second part is your uni when i was a freshman i was totally scared and couldn't do anything i would just attend classes and that's probably it. But slowly you gain friend's and you move and do amazing things. Looking back at those 4 years those were the best 4 year's of my life ! So just chill and i can guarantee you you'll be happy at the end of it.
    Enjoy and code coz that's what you love?
    Right?
  • 1
    Thanks all for help. I realy needed that today.

    Im not stressed by anything, even by uni. In secondary and in first hight school year i was very hyped about uni. Now i just lost the hype. I hope it will change when i finaly get there and start going to student hobby clubs.
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