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Condor
2y

Fuck that bitch of a mother of mine. After what she's done to me, I would totally just fucking electrocute her (lawyers, this is a rage post not a real one, I've learnt from that previous psychiatrist that these rages can be taken improperly!) or just send a fucking EMP to her fucking "schermpkes" (EN: screens, displays, whatever! Technology!) or whatever. FUCK THAT FUCKING WHORE!!!

Yes she gave birth to me. Should I be thankful for that, in this world where for some fucking reason Flat Earthers still exist, Despastico and those goddamn fucking Paul brothers became a thing? FUCK NO!! I wish I wasn't born in the first place! Or rather, a thought that's been playing for a long time in my head. Why the fuck can't I just cryo myself and be reborn in the next millennium?! No, that's not possible because as it is now, humanity will likely have fucked up the planet by then. Majority of the people are still no more than self-jerking fucking monkeys. With their Instagram geotagging shit all over the place, nametests and shit like that. FUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!! Why are people like this?!!!! Why can't people be a tad more intelligent, why can't people actually learn about what this reality is all about?! Why is the burden of all this on scientists, no those who spoonfeed information into the mouths of the masses, like fucking Hashem Al-Ghaili (which is an amazing person but he's doing too much spoonfeeding IMO). WHY?!!! WHY AM I BORN IN THIS FUCKING DYSTOPIA?!!!!

WHY AM I BORN IN THIS FUCKING WORLD WHERE PEOPLE ARE INDOCTRINATED INTO "NOTHING TO HIDE, NOTHING TO FEAR"?!!!!! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!!!!!!!! You've got a fucking brain, USE IT!!!!

I fucking hate this world. Someone hire a hitman on the darkweb to kill me and that fucking whore that gave birth to me, NOW!!!

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  • 12
    Time to cry myself right back to sleep, in this dystopian world that is planet Earth. Just like every night before it.. except I lost my ability to cry long ago. I so fucking loathe this life. There's no words for my disgust towards it. If there's any God out there like that Tet from No Game No Life, I beg you. Transfer me to another world, please!!! I fucking hate this status quo that is life!
  • 15
    Wwwwwwwhat the fuck happened?
  • 9
    Come to think of it, @AlexDeLarge mind going for a drink sometime? Contemplating life at.. wherever, wouldn't seem that bad an idea to me. At least this misanthropic and chronically depressed nature of me would prove useful for something then. I'd even travel all the way to Germany for that.
  • 13
    @AleCx04 an LED broke, probably because the glue I used for it messed with the solder joints. Just the drip that tripped the bucket though. These family events always mess with my mental health. And this time it's just been a little bit too much for me, due to the combination of events in recent history (my only birthday present came from my fucking landlord of all people!!!) as well as past ones (which I don't want to get too much into, just remembering causes me to feel suicidal already). This has been too much for me. Time to cut that bloody blood bond and embrace the people who actually deserve it.

    @Floydian given that she's got 4 kids (which is quite unusual here) that may have very well been the case. Apparently I've always been an unwanted child, which coupled with the fact that she's given birth to me at age 19 (just like my fucking sister, except she was even quicker and now she's a goddamn cleaning lady because she couldn't even finish her high school over getting laid) that would make a lot of sense... Eh, perhaps that's why I've always been a reject in that shitty "family" of mine.
  • 5
    @Condor why'd you bother getting/making her a present?
  • 4
    @qwerty77asdf formalities mostly. But now that this shit's gone, no reason at all. Perhaps the only reason now for its current lack of existence would be to justify breaking bonds with some existing leeches.
  • 2
    @Condor tbh I think it'd be better to just not bother if you honestly don't like her.

    If you want to still attend to the formalities you might as well just go with something low effort and buy her something.
  • 4
    @AlexDeLarge ah, no problem. Seems like a reasonable assessment to me 🙂
    As for the origin of the rant, there's 2 others that are related to it.. all involving the person who gave birth to me being a cunt.
  • 5
    on a funnier note, you can contact Musk and when he starts life on the Mars, you can take charge of how to build the civilization there. 😛

    And actually why do you keep things around that bother you?

    for e.g., you mentioned Instagram, Paul brothers, etc. This means you know what those shitstuff are. When you know they make you depressed, why keep in touch with them?

    I uninstalled Instagram 6 months ago coz it never gave me real pleasure. Now I don't know what's going on there and I never get depressed by it.

    Similarly, if ig bothers you, don't open that app again. if Paul brothers or flat earthers bother you, don't watch/read about them again.

    If you're unhappy with your family, don't stay with/visit them again.

    You're strong enough to make it into his world by your own. They'll be strong enough to live without you.

    Hashem guy, let him do what he wants. don't let his business bother your peace of mind.
  • 5
    I feel that you've problem with letting people live their lives, letting small things not bother you, letting stuff go.

    you should probably train your mind to handle those.

    killing yourself is like unplugging video game right when you're getting to the next level. i feel so bad if that happens.

    one day you will die. your existence and death would hardly make any difference on this big planet.

    focus on you, your stuff, your shit, your life. cuz that is all what matters to your life.
  • 4
    PS:
    all things stated above are said only based on this rant. I don't know you @Condor. so most of what I say may not even be relevant to you.

    please don't let my words bother you in a negative way, or in any way.

    Also, I don't know who Hashem is, have never watched a single Paul videos, did not know ig has geotagging stuff.
  • 2
    For sometimes I just want to disappear from this world (not to die, just disappear)
  • 3
    What happened, man?

    If you want to come to Portugal, I'll take you for a night out.

    Just cut your ties with them...

    I luckily have the best parents I could hope for (except their close-minded... That doesn't matter compared to parents like your mother). But I cut all ties with the black sheep in my family. It only matters if you need to live with them, other then that... Go out, find good friends, fuck family.

    If you need a vacation Portugal is really nice now, still summer.
  • 4
    @GyroGearloose Sintra is really nice, yeah.

    Btw, here your screenshot for 5k:
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    @Fast-Nop Hey thanks :p

    I don't really care about ++, didn't even noticed... Thanks.

    All of Portugal is nice... the best part is that we have almost everything. We have some of the best beaches in the south, nice villages to visit, natural resources, snow... You can do any kind of vacation here :D
  • 2
    @Fast-Nop Actually I do care for 5k... Dual monitor setup like mine :D
  • 1
    Btw @Condor, my parents may be great, but they are going to loose their house due to the bitch sister of my pah...

    So, I also have someone I hate...

    Actually, I'm just waiting to get her in front of me, if possible in a very public place...
  • 2
    @gsn16 well the reason why I know about those Paul fucks is not that I watch them, it's that Google and YouTube keep on recommending those cunts when I'm not logged in. Regarding Instagram geotagging, no idea either to be honest.. never used it. Perhaps it's just a Facebook thing. Excessive data sharing and then crying at Cambridge Analytica (or anyone for that matter) for taking it essentially. Pieces of shit.

    Starting a new civilization on Mars.. that'd be so amazing. Problem is that natural selection based on intelligence probably violates some human rights 😕

    @GyroGearloose that's actually a really good suggestion! A night out, chatting about electronics stuff etc. I'd be up for that :3
  • 1
    @S-Homles-MD lol
  • 2
    iiiiii fucking hate this life too
  • 1
    @SukMikeHok bro 😢🤗😭
  • 2
    @Condor family is always a very distant and weird topic to a lot of us. At work my lead developer is aware of my hatred towards my father's side of the family. I can't stand them for many reasons.

    One day he told me that he could never pick friends over family because "blood is thicked than water"
    I told him that even though I am happy that he feels that way and blessed as he is with such family...that I could always pick friends over family, specially considering that the saying goes:

    "The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb"

    You are connected to your bloodline by virtue of birth. But you do get to make and select your true family.

    My heart goes to you and so does my friendship.
  • 3
    @AlexDeLarge while I respect your views I just want to say something.

    It is ot the content of your rants that makes people want to meet you. I honestly believe that we get an idea(wether this is based on a realistic one is yet to be determined) of each one of us based on our way of writing. Content and style are different things, there may be someone that rants as hard, but the delivery is different.

    I like your style, you seem like an honest person, and I am willing to be that your misanthropy is far from being misplaced. You also seem to me to hold hatred over how two faced and bullshit like a lot of people are, which also makes you genuinely honest. You could also be a lying asshole, but i would take my previous observation over anything else to conclude in--> i want to meet that asshole.

    Not expecting to change your mind or anything, just saying that at least for me, what i get from your style is something that I find authentic and honest.
  • 3
    Start working on becoming independent. Switch city and start your life from 0. All these frustrations are temporary and wont matter after some time. Personally was in a similar situation but as soon as I started making my own money from personal projects at the age of 15 my ties were cut. I was treated like an adult and now that im 25 living new life my family is happy if they see me once every year. You are a smart guy and you will figure it out!
  • 1
    @zemaitis Thanks! I'm currently largely independent (been forced to, by getting homeless a few years ago) but the issue is that my mother has started to contact me again shortly after that, while during the period in which I was actually homeless and needed her the most, she wouldn't give a damn. Unfortunately I gave in and accepted her contacting me again, even after all that.. unconditional love is such a strange thing. But it mentally damages me, and this time it's just been a little too much. Moving out of my current apartment is on my to-do list but I've moved way too often in recent years to want to do that again in the near future. Until that's sorted out however she does know where I live, which could become a problem over time... Oh well.
  • 2
    @AlexDeLarge oh I understand completely. I really do since I hold the same virtues in high regard as well. It really is hard to truly conect to some people if you have that asshole sense(sort of spider sense) that guards one from shit people.

    My wife says that If I don't like someone....that i don't bother hiding it. I have a very expressive face. Yet I am able to blend everywhere.
  • 1
    @AlexDeLarge I doubt that you'd be one of those liars.. I've known you here for too long, and seen way to many "lying, fucking cocks" (sorry, couldn't resist 😛) for that to be the case 🙂
    Just like @AleCx04 I value the same virtues, which also don't seem to be very common in the people around me in the real world.. that's what I think makes devRant so amazing. The people in here are for the most part great. A rarity in the world, yet common here.
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    @GyroGearloose more like a giant familial clusterfuck.. just had my sister bad-mouth me and even call the police on me over not going to that stupid birthday party. Family my hairy ass. They can all burn in hell!!!
  • 1
    @GyroGearloose oh wait you're talking about AlexDeLarge's comment? Eh, I've seen plenty of catfishes in my life to determine who's the real deal.. I bet that only very few members here would qualify as a catfish 🙂
  • 1
    @Condor Call the police, for... ??? Wtf???

    It's also hard to catfish me... Us that were here (WWW) in the beginning learned really fast when there were no pictures or webcams... Still got Catfished a few times, but nothing serious.
  • 1
    @AlexDeLarge , @Condor This isn't the kind of network for catfishing... Since isn't your standart MySpace/Facebook like network.

    The most you'l get catfished here Is devs saying they know more that they do... The likes who know a little Html and say they are Web Pros...

    Like my ex. She said to everyone she was a computer geek, untill she met me...

    But she was... compared to 99.9% of the dumb fucks out there she was really smart. Now I can't get a date because I can't date dumb people no more...
  • 1
    @Condor WHY DA FUCK DID YOUR SISTER CALLED THE POLICE FOR?

    If you did nothing Illegal, you know you can counter with your own complaint? ... But I bet you prefer to stay away from confusion.

    My Advice... Move away from them, no matter the times you moved before, take your time, find a nice place you will really like and don't tell anyone on your family that your moving until the final day. Then go visit one time a week... And if they don't behave one time a month...

    Also, the distance will help to break ties and recover your mental health after each attack on your person.
  • 1
    @GyroGearloose she apparently got worried that I not so friendly told her that I wasn't pleased with her badmouthing me. Apparently shouting at someone over the phone is a reason for a valley bum like her to think that I'm in full rage. Fucking cunt she is. Perhaps I'll file a complaint about it at some point but unfortunately I only noticed afterwards that I didn't set up ACR to record calls yet. So yeah.. and I honestly don't want to spend much more time on those cunts that think that a blood bond somehow makes them "family", even when the only thing they can do really well is trying to screw me over.

    Edit: also I visit them only like twice a year now.. weekly would be absolute hell! :')
  • 1
    Yepp...
    Fuck them...
    Stay Away
    Move away
    Call them sometimes so they can complain on out you left them.
    Meet new friends... I might be doing an Idea you could use... I'm activelly looking for people that likes DIY, eletronics... Maybe get my own padowan or master to teach me...
    Meanwhile I'm meeting new people... No one special so far, but at least I'm out there, talking to new people and sometimes making new friends.
  • 1
    @GyroGearloose at some point I might just make my own family 🙂 just that I'd need a girlfriend for that first, haha. One day.. one day for sure.

    Regarding the whole family part, eh they can suck up their complaints or spew them out and shove them right back up their ass. Currently I've blocked their numbers, and if they spam me I'll just get myself a new SIM. And when I move out, they most certainly won't know from me where to.

    Lastly, electronics.. YouTube! There's a lot of YouTube channels out there that I've learned from, and that I've documented in @Floydian's LinkHub (https://gitlab.com/_Floydian/...). Have a look! 🙂
  • 1
    @Condor Uhh thanks for the LinkHub tip...
    So there are hubs for links... better that what I was thinking (I should start storing links for good sites because my memory sucks).
    Absolutly gonna spend a hour checking it out.
    Do you... have a LinkHub I could spy on??
  • 1
    @GyroGearloose all of my contributions to that repository have been merged in. My own fork of it is at https://gitlab.com/irc.condor/... but it's pretty much the same thing. After my merge request I don't think that there's been any more commits to either of them.
  • 1
    @Condor Nice, thanks a lot :p
    Not just need to have patience to read… been missing that latelly :(
  • 2
    @irene I've broken up with them at this point, so hopefully this was the last rant on that.. but yeah, as far as I'm concerned, my parents can both go straight to hell...
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