What have I done today?

Nothing. Stayed naked all day and smoked weed.

Well I did my budget for the month and send my bills.

Tomorrow I'm paid.

Can't wait to receive my 8 strings guitar omg

I wanna smoke weed but I have an MRI tomorrow and doctors are annoying

they told me i got sick cuz of supplements but that doesn't even make sense. cuz I didn't take any that day... I gave them a log of what I took. it was like. lemon ginger tea. and they're like. you ended up in the hospital cuz of supplements. uhhuh.

fucking hacks

they made like 3 different holes in my spine doing the spinal tap cuz they couldn't do it right. hate

been like 3 months since I smoked weed. just feel like relaxing. I'm stressed in a specific way that it chills me out in. sigh.

what they do is fuck you up with mandatory medicine so then they can fuck you up by fucking being hacks

oh who cares if I just have a bunch of holes in the bone of my spine now. now I get back aches from it and from the first spinal tap I STILL get back aches in that area years later. nice.

why don't you take these anti convulsant pills. become dependent. let us fuck up your receptors in your body more. and as we do it we tell you you're not allowed to eat more food and shit so you wanna kill yourself cuz you're not allowed to enjoy any bit of life anymore and that's all you'll think about, that cage they insist on because they're lying about how they're "helping" you (they're not)

how the flying fuck did the vaccine fuck the receptors up? what the fuck did it do? how about that?

but no they deny everything and just blame you. all the while they can't even do a single thing right. all the while they just fuck up your metabolism more until you wanna die just like everybody else

@jestdotty so maybe, you're looking for solutions in the wrong corner. Consider different type of doctors. It helps if you do treatment that you believe in.

@retoor no I already fixed myself and I'm mad they're pretending to care now. they're dictating what I can and can't do and they never fucking helped me the last 3 years.

this doctor guy won my trust but then once he did that he just keeps acting like all the other doctors. so I guess it was just a con just like everybody else

my bad for doing occult and freaking myself out due to my own psychology. I asked for an asylum and they took me to the hospital. when I went to the hospital for the actual brain issue they wanted to asylum me... seriously how more disgusting can people be. they do the opposite of what you suggest, like a fucking destabilizing insult. anything I say it must be false. cool. well I actually have proof of the things you say being false, especially after 3 years of reading your fucking studies and literature, so... Jesus fuck the field is so fucked

I don't want them touching me anymore. useless hacks.

they're gonna MRI me tomorrow and put more of that toxic dye

they don't even fucking warn you about the toxic dye

and ofc they pretend it isn't toxic also, even tho there's studies proving it is under certain conditions... LIKE IF YOU HAVE BRAIN ISSUES

such fucking hacks

@jestdotty doing the opposite of what you want... Is actually ecractky what they do in a mental assylum I know from experience. Especially when it comes to wanting or refusing medication. It's all a test.

@retoor well then even conventional medicine is a fucking mental asylum

God so gross

@jestdotty doctors are drug peddlers. they know fuck-all about nutrition.

they gave me these opioids in the ER to take home lol. gosh i get so high on those for the pain. i poked the spot where they put the IV in on Saturday and it didn't hurt. felt weird. weed actually causes more anxiety issues for me than what it solves.

doc didn't even tell me how long i should take these painkillers and anti-inflammatories.

@int32 yeah they gave me opioids and I knew what opioids were. this was before the opioid epidemic. I said I didn't want to take them and they told me I had to lmao

anyway I didn't take them

so fucked up

my mom on the other hand... had kidney stone issues and they gave her opioids. and she was trusting because in USSR the doctors are actually competent. so she took the opioids and then complained about them.. . to which I laughed. she was horrified and said the opioids were worse than the kidney stones lmao

@jestdotty i never had any of those things, so took some the other night and holy fuck, i couldn't sleep and it was awful. but, i had no pain :D