well seems my physical body rejected my astral self and then shit went fuck

guiizz emotions are important. as is that little voice in your head that they call the conscience. if it goes away turns out you feel lonely, and then you only have base "human" emotions of survival, and walk around like a retard with physical health problems no gold-plated health diet will ever save you from (even past getting thru all the misinformation in institutions which are paid by big soy and corn and petroleum and chemical industries). wild how consistent all this is oh my god

How are you doing atm?

@BordedDev wait how the fuck did I write this yesterday. says posted one day ago

well I went back to the vampire place that made me freak the fuck out and rewrote my delete scripts to remove all the messages there. and then I got re-possessed by whatever fucking problem that guy over there had (I didn't know that would happen, I was feeling pretty confident and strong at the time before it happened again -.-). he was into hypnotism and I think he did that to me. his complicity on the matter is unknown but he's denying everything and now ignoring me. I hate him. guess I'm useless to him if he can't brainwash me which is par for the course I suppose

but I had to just go... uhhh... re-cleanse myself I guess. did some chakra stuff, aura cleansing stuff, revoked contracts for a bit... then did some qigong for shielding

am sane this morning

but I gotta be careful about what I think / auto-meditate of. that's how those things get in. and I have terrible self control for whatever reason

*eats cheese and cherries*

I think the psych drugs feel pretty useless to me now. I have loud tinnitus because ever since the brain issues ofc I do

just got delivery groceries and gorging out. didn't sleep much cuz of scheduling issues

gonna have another psych appointment today and I'm so bored. staving off of drugs so these people stop blaming random nonsense. I love how I told them hey my iq quite literally was tested 145 by your employer (the government) and the guy is like maybe you have feelings of grandiosity therefore it's bipolar. I don't have bipolar -.-

I do have mania. mania's caused by prolonged exposure to stress. I also have fibromyalgia. I don't have antibodies to my neurons, so those multiple sclerosis lesions are not caused by "multiple sclerosis" (which means autoimmunity to your own cells). if I had MS I had probably cured it along with my allergies and such... just got so much stress from being sick so long. fucking MS guy's goons called me 5 times shilling 💊