skipped my meds yesterday night by accident and just got the best sleep I've had in a month. yeah fuck these things

and they lied to me and told me they were sleeping meds the first time even tho that was unnecessary to be doing and they're not prescribed for sleep

I hate the medical field. that's so fucking gross

The only things I trust to improve my sleep are exercise and magnesium.

Either that, or the aforementioned meds have some conflict w/ any other meds you might be taking.

Mentioning this result to the doc, that you had a better sleep when you forgot to take those meds is probably a good idea. At the very least they will know better your situation && the results of those meds on your body...

...in case the doc was wrong before or something.

@jestdotty I agree with @whimsical sleep meds work by disabling parts of your brain so you're not actually sleeping but disconnected instead, my mom is a physio and will give you the same advice about taking something to relax instead

I once skipped my meds because I didn’t have enough money to afford them. That night, I couldn’t sleep. I was shaking. New ideas were pouring in. Then, as tiredness was leaving my body, I realized I could see in 8k. Every smell was four-dimensional, my physical strength was increasing by the minute, and was crying because I was experiencing every emotion there is to experience at that very moment.

I’m fortunate and experienced enough to know that that high is how mania begins. Without medication, that superhuman state will carry on for three to four weeks in my case, followed by a year of deep depression that responds to neither conventional nor alternative medicine.

The kind of meds I take are designed to slow me down. Without them, it’s over for y’all bitches. Y’all be replaced. Then, after some time, it’s over for me too lol

Just to clarify, advice is for people who want to sleep, not for other issues 😅

@jestdotty that’s fun for sure, but in my case it has a brutally high price

@whimsical fuuuuck

I don't use haldol though. I use quetiapine and lamotrigine.

@whimsical because that's not what I was prescribed :D

@whimsical on the other hand I'm told if I take these for a year and come out of it fine then I'll basically never have psychosis again

unless the doc lied. he's a smart cookie and his form of lying would be thru logic and I'm not validating what he's telling me. reminds me of my mother who would put me in boxes of logic. but I find logic so comforting 🤤

@whimsical apparently BDNF helps dopamine receptors go back to normal... released during aerobic exercise. only way out. hate. I'm too lazy for this

when switching the timing of the pill I got worst of the mania on day 3. day 4 I got better. now on day 5 and I don't have mania at all as far as I can tell... but I'm really lazy

think the pills just simply gave me mania lol, wasn't my regular mania but a more independent of my stress form

I also ate liver today though. I think inflammation is what triggers the mania for me... liver is anti inflammatory nutrients. might explain why no mania today

prolonged cortisol will cause dopamine receptors to fuck up and you get mania. fuck this illness. if you got inflammation short term cortisol fixes the inflammation but it'll stop working later. and bam inflammation and shitty fucking mania now for me I guess

Ted talk of random. so tired... and hungry! shouldn't be hungry but probably the pills... sigh