>be me, working at IBM as CC operator
>onboarding freeze, people leaving team, not enough operators
>take extra workload to sustain monitoring
>no raise
>team gets merged with other CC team(different customers)
>take over of developing full workload automation project
>no raise
>sick coworker, have to take more extra workload to cover monitoring
>get tiny raise
>coworker gets the same raise for only one extra workload
>be expected to do both programming and monitoring for the little salary
>too autistic to quit
>too autistic to confront my mamager with this

What do, devRant?

Don't use autism as an excuse, I've been able to switch jobs and get raises, at least in part because of autism... If you're adding value, be willing to put up with the discomfort of asking for a raise, it's a very short term pain for long term gain...

@ThomasRedstone you are right that I shouldn't use it as excuse. But here are some details for you. I asked for raise 2 times, 1st time manager told me he will take away the one extra workload, second time that it wouldn't get approved or whatever. The person working on the project before me had central shifts and didn't have to monitor tickets. I have to do both, then I'm not effective in neither and get payed only for doing the monitoring. I also had some central shifts but at that time, there were no requests for functionalities from customer so it was kinda open project, I added and worked on what I wanted with my pace. Now I have deadlines and team has even less personal so no central shifts for me. If there is a bug in prod version I get blamed for not repairing it right away even if I had no time to fix it.

It still might sound like I'm making excuses, but the panic attacks I get almost daily from fear of making mistake in monitoring or not making the deadlines are terrible.

Start looking for a better job. If you can't bring yourself to quit outright, that's fine, but at least start looking. And once you've found a new opening and you feel secure, hand in your two weeks' notice.

I ended up in a similar situation since I have crippling social anxiety, and that's more or less how I got out. Just dealing with it while looking for a better opportunity.

Polish your CV. Look for jobs. Go to interviews, take leave if needed. Once you have potential offers, submit resignation letter. If manager/HR asked for the reason, tell the message from your above rant.

@Rematix damn, that is a tricky situation! And did I read right, this is working at IBM? Where are you based? in the EU a situation like this could well be considered 'disability discrimination' (indirect, as it is a result of practices which do not place people with disabilities on an even playing field, rather than a conscious decision), which is the kind of phrase that makes HR shit their pants.
I personally don't see high functioning autism as a disability, just a trade off, some benefits in exchange for some weaknesses, but the law does give it protections in most countries.