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New job on the horizon after being unemployed for a couple of months. Moving away from full-stack a bit to focus in on front-end stuff. Cool. Cool, cool, cool. Expect rage-filled rants in the near future 👌

Taking some time off was beneficial in all kinds of ways: got out of long term toxic relationship, got in betterer shape, learned stuff I'm actually interested in, mental health improved massively along with self-esteem, and I reconnected with friends and family. I'm actually enjoying life again. Don't get me wrong though, I had to claw my way out of a pretty dark hole... But I'm starting to think I fucking made it. This is a new start and I'm excited.

Fuck being in a toxic relationship.
Fuck working a job that is killing you.

If you're reading this and feel stuck: you deserve better. Listen to your gut, only you know what kind of life is good for you. It doesn't matter if it's a good job by every possible standard if it's making you miserable! A relationship exists to help you grow, to give you energy, to cultivate love. Sure, you'll go through bad times but if it's pathologically bad it won't get better on it's own. Trust me, I waited years for things to get better.

Anyways, good luck with whatever is challenging you right now, big or small. 😘

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  • 2
    The way you wrote "cool cool cool" makes me think:

    1-you're Russian

    2-you had some vodka

    :))

    I'm glad you sorted your problems dude! This is a very inspirational post
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    @wateringdisease Haha, I'm swedish and I've had some whiskey. It's a reference to https://youtu.be/vMXYjejIup4 🤓 Well, it used to be a reference but by now it's, like, one of my bugs/features. Oops.

    And thank you very much, that's what I was hoping for. I'm just trying to share and say what I myself needed to hear so that I might help someone who's in a similar situation ✌️A little nudge can get the ball rolling, I'm very thankful to the people that shared their experiences with me so that I could see that change was necessary, and possible.
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    Really inspiring post, good luck!
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    @rutee07 No worries, I wasn't open with it. Like, it didn't dawn on me how messed up me and my life was until recently.

    It's like you start looking for a light but you can't see that you're in darkness? I guess that's what sadness and depression does, it paints a veil over the world and you'll look at everything through that lense. I guess all strong emotions do that, but it's something about feeling that you / your life is broken that makes it that much harder to fix it. People need to be there for each other.

    Good luck to you too. I dunno why but your struggle spoke to me and I just felt like, damn, this person has to pull through and not let that shit get to them.
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    Fuck relationships and society’s expectations of us to be in one. Good work escaping your toxic one, that takes strength.
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    @toriyuno Thanks! Turns out I have a friend who is in a very similar situation. It feels good being able to support him thanks to the lessons I had to learn.

    It's weird, some of the most independent, lovable, and competent people have this huge void that they desperately try to fill with someone or something. I wish everyone could see their potential.
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