Day 1: depressing
Day 2: blissful

OR

Day 1: blissful
Day 2: depressing

I noticed this pattern to repeat EVERY TIME IN MY LIFE.

When something is extremely good one day, I actually try to reduce the happiness because the depression will kick in the next day twice as much.... So even when i get hit by happy days, i am forcefully trying to become depressed in order to avoid being depressed twice as much tomorrow, CAn you Fucking believe me this ? Hhh
Hhhh

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i dont have energy to live

I can kind of relate to this, one day I'm excited and happy, the next I feel like I can't code shit and feel down

@alexbrooklyn why is this happening

I have an other pattern.
Day 1: Depressing.
Day 2: Depressing.

Repeat..

Yes, very sad I know. but still not a confusing pattern like yours

I've been "troubleshooting" my own depression and anxiety for years. Haven't quite figured it out yet, but here is my ongoing theory:
Your brain is constantly trying to maintain an equilibrium of neurotransmitters. If, for whatever reason, you get an excess or shortage of one, say, serotonin, you brain say signals to scale back or increase production, respectively. Those of us battling depression (or related ailments) must have something going amiss with this process. Maybe the brain overreacts when trying to balance out. Or is too slow to react. Or is struggling to find resources to produce necessary neurotransmitters, causing a lag.

Just my theory. I'm no doctor. But, I haven't found much help from doctors, to be honest. The improvements I've made in the years battling this have come from my own research.

That's a fair balance. Suffer some, surf some.

day 1: depressing
day 2: depressing
day 3: depressing
day 4: depressing
day 5: depressing
day 6: depressing
day 8: depressing
day 9: depressing
day 10: depressing
day 11: depressing
day 12: depressing
day 13: depressing
day 14: depressing
day 15: depressing
day 16: depressing
...

@Kage
It is similar for me, just add one happy day randomly per month...

@Gregozor2121 I generally enjoy my weekends so I always have something to look forward to. (:

Bipolar? Theres drugs that do that control thing for you, so you can work on solving the underlying problem.