I was once a guy fascinated by the world of computers , games and tech stuff. And today in my 21 and almost 6 months before my graduation ( as a fucking "CS" engineer) , i feel almost everything in CS as difficult or boring , even the things i am usually good at , and by looking at the competition, i am scared if this career is ever going to be fruitful for me :(

Every dev will have this once in a while. I've had this in school as well but after I was done I haven't had it yet.

CS is not real world programming.
There are cutting edge things being done at AmaGoogBookSoft but the vast majority of the work that needs to be programmed isn’t that interesting.

Good work graduating, as a self taught programmer, you might be better off than myself.

@Demolishun more like the existential dread that comes from knowing the only reason modern life is possible is because some neck beard is a jerk about source formatting during code reviews because he has seen the company lose millions due to using > instead of >=.

@Demolishun I am kind of messed up wherever i look at.
Those games and stuff led me to the path of an android dev: learning java, python, native android stuff. now i am on the verge of getting graduated, i feel i should have a job.

I like android and doing it for last 2+ years, but am still far from being perfect or a 1 man army in it. And i guess my innovating mind got lost during the transformation from a 16 year curious excited guy to a 21 nobody , self loathing average guy , so i can't think of next cool app that would grow a userbase>1000.

So my current desire is to be in an android job where i can learn to be professional in android and being paid a decent pay for it, but so far i have found myself in the low paying ass busting startups where they make me a 1 man army guy from day 1(which is stupid, coz from "1 man army", i mean a guy trained enough to make a complete app, "train" being an imp word) to build their complete apps from scratch...

... at the same time i feel i need to expand more of my knowledge base horizontally and learn other technologies like web/ hybrid apps, blockchain, cloud, ai/ml, etc the hot stuff so i can hope for a job.
I am not currently interested in them and find them boring, but maybe i have not given them enough time?maybe android is my comfort bubble? maybe i am a shit holding on to a technology and missing out good opportunities in other fields? ahh shit am out