Someone need a new job asap, if you need some CV exposure tho dm t.me/uyouthe, it’s completely free
@uyouthe Nah... It's fine.
I just needed to get it off my chest.
I'm happy with my work, last months were just extremely exhausting. I liked to curse and swear and visualize most gory details, it is my way of staying sane.
... but currently I'm too tired for this.
It will get better in the next weeks, I guess.
@IntrusionCM i felt the same. Then the first panic attack happened and I just laid there in my own vomit, still can’t figure out for how long. Then the second attack happened. Then they diagnosed me with depression but prescribed a wrong medication and the “therapy” led to six months of nightmare where you can’t tell the day apart from night and see the letters but can’t read the words.
Please got yourself checked with a good, expensive psychiatrist. What you describe sounds exactly like the very beginning of what you’ll not be able to escape if you’re too late
@uyouthe uff... very honest. think that's the reason I answer, since I usually avoid this kind of "touchy personal stuff".
Health / psychology wise I'm what most people call a "train wreck".
I've learned to deal with it - yes doctors helped - but overall, this year is definitely the worst since a long time.
Climate change, corona, isolation... Year put me through a grinder. I know I'm not the only one....
That's what I meant by exhaustion. Job is a small part of it, yes - but the largest part is just this completely insane and fucked up world.
The rant was for me just a way to remind myself of having finished this mammoth task despite the world being a misanthropic pile of shit.
Sort of "Good job done" and "Fuck you world. Really - FUCK U."
@uyouthe it's not your bad.
Quite the opposite. One of the reasons I'm a train wreck is because most of the doctors I talked to did exactly that.
"Oh you're still working? Well it can't be that bad then. It's going to be fine"
... And yes. This escalated a few times pretty badly. Of course I'm working. It's the glue that keeps me from going completely bananas.
So it's the right thing to talk about this.
Because it affects a lot of people and once you're stuck in the loophole of shit it's too late.
So high five mate.