!!rant
!dev

I think I'm trash and I NEED to restart life.

We all feel like that one time or another. Although it’s hard to believe right now, this doesn’t define you. It’s just a state. One day you will look back and feel proud that you made it through.

If you really need to, you actually can try a soft restart.
You can extend the skill set, shift personality traits slightly, add and remove hobbies, friends, move to a new home, home land, create a new family,...

The real question is, whether the potential benefit is worth the risks (there are always risks).
So be sure about what it actually is that needs to be changed and what you want to change it to. And don't try to go for gold - only very few actually get there and almost all that fail on it are really sorry about it...

If you say it long enough it will become true