I wake up with so much interest and enthusiasm for programming and tech. It all goes away when I start work at 9 AM. Everyday at 5 PM, I question my career choices. I don't have the interest from the beginning of the day nor the energy to do anything.

Entire careers are built on "Any updates?" emails.

Okay, here's a rant for you: neo fucking vim and their fucking wrapper plugins for wrapper plugins for wrapper plugins for plugins "tHat'S wRitTen in LOWAA". The fuck is wrong with you, you fucking dumpshits?! Bram was right to not get involved in this bullshit!!

Happy nihilist Sunday!

I work in an international company.

So my coworkers are Idiots without Borders.

Doctor said my heart is healthy and I will live forever.

Good news, I guess

I hate feelings and emotions. Just got a [normal] text and I'm pretty shaken and my thoughts are everywhere.

My boy is alive

For now, until the components start to corrode.

Can I use a flamethrower to dry my laptop?

I'm usually very careful with *everything* except today, I spilled half my water bottle on my personal laptop which I was using for interview prepping and while I had no plans to buy a new computer for the time being (not by choice lol). Here's a photo of my 5 year old boy.

I had so much dispair today I feel like a bum

That's a good one!

Sadly, in real life, I'm overly polite (working on fixing that dammit!!) and always trying to stay professional. I have a couple of coworkers who not only need a scolding, they need someone to beat their idiocy out of their little brains.

I have on occasions told some coworkers off when they were way out of place. A recent one: idiot PO trying to micromanage the dev team and thinking he's manager of the devs, came to me personally (sudden Slack call, no calendar invite) with some bullshit feedback about ̶c̶o̶m̶m̶u̶n̶i̶c̶a̶t̶i̶o̶n̶ CUMmNnicaTioN (I had to). Told him it's not his place to give me feedback and it's not his place to manage my time for me and ended the call aggressively which I don't prefer (it's always better to keep your cool and control your thoughts and words). My cholesterol level went up writing this.

Thank you and have a nice Monday!

Haven't made it yet.

Why do we fall?

I have a few side project ideas. I started one of them a few months ago (project setup, dependencies, git repo, index page, very basic API and client functionality). But I cannot get myself to work on it or even think about it (for months now). The reason? I do not want to work on the client/frontend! I do not want to deal with React or Vue or Svelte or fuckjs or even jquery. It's a fucking mess.

For the backend, the requests are stateless: you get a request, handle it, and respond back. Need to update state? Database. That's it!
For the frontend, there's just tooo many states I can't keep up with! When the user checks or unchecks this checkbox, I need to maintain the state of the checkbox and maintain the all effects of changing the checkbox while syncing with the backend and making sure the elements are still styled correctly with the applied effects. Multiply that with all the expected interactive elements on the page. It's exhausting!

I came to know and use C++ for 10 years now and I've just seen this syntax:

for(int i{0}; i<5; i++) { }

WTF is this shit??

Currently preparing for job interviews so I can leave this clownship of a company. I get extremely agitated when I fail so solve a leetcode problem.

My team's special jutsu:

Infinite Idiocy

I'm not always an adult and a man. Sometimes I'm a little boy in distress who needs a hug.

For real, it has to be Linux, GNU-Linux, mind you, and Firefox since I use both on a daily basis.

Your mother.

I got one YT recommendation from "Charisma on Command" and now I'm watching all videos. I have all these problems and more.

When I see a coworker is having their anniversary at my company, I don't know whether to congratulate them or give them my condolences.

*Sent an email with misspelled person's name*

This just in: Panic attack

I'm dealing with an organization that wants me to send them some documents securely but I cannot use their platform (for reasons). Anyway, they asked me to send them an email with a password-protected zip folder for the documents and of course, I will have to send them the password by email so..

I swear to God, I have gut wrenching feeling every morning before work or when I think about work. My stomach actually hurts now.

I just cannot hold myself laughing at the most serious moments in meetings. People say the funnies/stupidest shit and they go unnoticed!

!dev

I actually wanted to find some answers but this guy took it to another level

https://qr.ae/pvP18s

Since the last rant is talking about brains, I feel like this summer heat is frying my brain. It's been some of the weirdest days for me these last couple of days. I cannot focus on anything. Cannot make sane decisions or conclusions. I'm more depressed/sad. More disorganized. I don't want to eat anything. I'm sky-high anxious. I'm more shy than ever in public. I have no reason for that but I don't what's happening.

It's a Monday, I've been trying to fix a bug since the morning, I cannot read or write any code. I tried to review a PR, still cannot read the code. Getting frustrated by the slightest problem.