idk why I'm so anxious about money... I'm not broke, I'm better than most people my age, ffs i have savings, but whenever i think of spending on sh*t i need i start thinking about what if i get fired, what if i have to move back with my parents, where do i put my cat???
wish my brain was doing better tbh

its because that money can run out during one straight shot of unemployment and also you want to do anything you can to keep it.

thats what sucks about professional positions, you have more and you worry more.

today and yesterday I walked a combine total of over 30 miles, slept on a couch in front of a church and was given 3 to 4 free meals at restaurants.

i envy you your form of stress, when i had it I never imagined this pointless crap.

@rutee07 i want to get a new computer, but the parts are really expensive where i live, so I've been postponing it for years now. idk, the thought of regretting the purchase later makes me so anxious, it's ridiculous

hurray for human robots unlimited. heh.

@rutee07 it's just really expensive in general, country wide. the minimum wage is currently about 1k, and some very shitty notebooks are 4k. 1k can get me a gpu maybe 🤷 well, the minimum wage is crap too, but it's telling

@darksideofyay
The good news is, that waiting always gives you more bang for the buck when it comes to PC components.

Would definitely sit out the current supply crisis if possible.

@UnicornPoo yeah i think it's also related to how i was brought up. my mom was very strict with money. when i was... 6 i guess? cause i had to be, my sister tricked me into spending all my piggy bank on her sweets that she was making for selling at school (my sister is 8 years older than me). when my parents found out they just told me to be more careful with money and left that as a cautionary tale 🤷 i think it really stuck with me