just feeling generally shitty

who isn't

Do something you love OP. Have me time this evening if you can x
You got this

Am feeling this rn too

Same

@MammaNeedHummus but I don't love anything

@iiii just get yourself a woman ( or 1-2 more if u already have 1 ) and you'll soon realize how happy u where before that ;)

@We3D no. I am avoiding relationships with women, because it's a huge bother to even have one.

@iiii true, true

@iiii went out with a friend the other day and she complained about some of her dates not treating her. She’s generally awesome, so that really threw me off. Fuck dating, the amount of stuff she was looking at when going on dates is scary and makes me think that most will do the same, given how often I hear that kind of stuff from others too.

@ars1 yeah, if only people could acknowledge that they do not need a whole world from another human being but just some but of compassion, care and some satisfaction. That would have been great.

@fruitfcker double-edged sword. Might be good or might backfire

@bigmonsterlover professional glithches...

@iiii I’m avoiding romance as well. I am still open to platonic relationships with women but just not dating for awhile.

@chonky-quiche I am not totally against both platonic and sexual relationships. It's just commonly they are overloaded by meaningless and bothersome stuff.

@iiii yeah people wanna complicate shit too much

@fruitfcker i do not want kids, she does. So we’re not compatible, and I appreciate her friendship so I’m not looking to fuck her.

@chonky-quiche also I'm just a shitty human to be with and I know that so no need to bother anyone

@iiii I’m sure you are not. I’m sure you are an amazing person to be around. You have the best way of saying things.

@bigmonsterlover comment of the month

@chonky-quiche nah, dude, you haven't seen me in person. I'm annoying everyone around me

@iiii well u ain’t annoying me - it sounds like you need to do something nice for yourself. Go take yourself out for some Italian food bb

@chonky-quiche would be nice. If only some shit was not happening around 😂

@iiii yeah what is transpiring? 🤔

@chonky-quiche war, forced conscription 🤷‍♂️ I'm literally living in my apartment like in a prison, not going outside unless totally necessary

@iiii damn dude I’m sorry to hear that - have u been meditating at all?

@chonky-quiche I don't understand meditation. Never managed to make it work. So no, I haven't been meditating.

@iiii meditation doesn’t just work - it’s not a state of anything. It helps my mental health the most out of anything I’ve tried so thought I would suggest it.

Especially bc it takes your mind off the past and future. Try insight timer.

@iiii counselling helped me. Everything got so much in the end that I started to numb it all.
But the anger and bitterness that grew from it eventually succumbed to the numbness too.
I lost days to it.
The numbing part is where it got scary.
Still comes back from time to time.
Hunger pains numbed too.

Anyways I thought I didn't have anything to say aloud. Knew it all in my head and thought they were just going to analyse me.
Turns out I had a lot <i>I</i> needed to tell myself, and not anyone else.
Had a lot to analyse about myself.
Couldn't have done it without the kindness my therapist showed me.
I was lucky we clicked so well together. They're like driving instructors, you have to try a few until you find the right one.

Am typing this because I think therapy is very misunderstood and hope this comment might help someone.
It's the best thing me and my family have done (both parents did it as well after seeing what it did for me).
Talking is easier than you think x

@MammaNeedHummus boy is it pricy tho

@chonky-quiche are you in the UK? It's free here. It's such a critical service it should be for all

@MammaNeedHummus interesting -healthcare is def better over there