@Sid2006 finally someone not giving me the usual don't do it bla bla, just help me, thank you for your honesty, I really appreciate it, I'll let you know, thank you

@Sid2006 yeah every few years someone kills themself on a famous bridge in my town, but I'm not sure the fall is high enough, gotta be sure

@GiddyNaya I tried different psychiatrics, two of them told me they didn't want my money and to recover in a mental illness center. One gave me prescribed pills that I'm taking since march the 11th, that I think are doing nothing for the mood and are the cause of the bleeding in my stomach.
I told this doctor about this blood yesterday night but he doesn't care, he told me not to worry because it was fresh blood.
I'm happy to die without everyone hating me because I had to kill myself, I hope I don't have to wait anymore too much

@GiddyNaya I embrace death, I've been looking for ways to die for most of my life, now I just have to wait for natural causes to take control

@netikras i wanna die

@fruitfcker I wanted to get help, I've tried with the few energies I have over the years. Last thursday I had a meeting with a psichiatrist, he didn't want my money, he told me he doesn't want to handle my case and to go close myself in a mental health institute. He was the last hope I had

@iiii yeah I should do it, I almost have the energy

Personally I don't care, I just wanna get the work done

@Demolishun yeah don't have anyone to ask, please answer my question

@Sid2006 thank you, my friends too have been telling me to apply for other jobs, but I don't have the energy to do a thing

@We3D lol you made laugh

@hjk101 I was just joking, btw I own a BMW, I pooped enough

I just asked for 20€/h and waiting for a response, a little less than a dogsitter.

@tosensei I did that this morning xD in a kind way, but the message went through
They told me they spoke to the manager, meanwhile they told me to start asap the next work because the customer is in an hurry. Now I gotta trust them, I guess

Memes never die

Yeah I quit the job, I told them this morning I was very pleased to work with them, but dogsitting seems way healthier
He actually told me he is going to ask in and look for a solution (I spoke with the analyst I work with)

@electrineer they paid me 320€ for 3 months of work overnight

@ostream it's very positive and good what they done in Spain, I've been to Ibiza and enjoyed a couple of cannabis clubs very much.
The situation in Italy only gets me mad, mafia controls everything and they are putting up more and more laws to empower themself. They won't permit marijuana legalization because it's a huge deal for them and stop any attempt. A crown-funded group proposed a new law via a referendum this year, to legalize it, but they didn't even let us, citizens, vote. They decided we didn't even have the right to say yes or no, it's a firm NO from the criminals.
Mafia controls Italy, now more than ever, that's the reason why it'll never be legal, they make money from it.

@ostream nope it's not, about the same price from a german vendor on the dark net I trust, very high quality product, but the same price with 5€ extra for shipping

@cprn I need to know more about your setup, I'm planning to slowly automate it completely, this is the first time for me growing indoor

@cprn you're joking with me

@cprn I'm using a 100W led right now, it's barely enough to get small humble flowers and it's still expensive af to run

@Sid2006 in Italy, 1 gram of weed costs about 15-20 euros and I smoke about 2 per day lmao
Growing is cheaper, but elettricity costs have skyrocketed, so it's still a major expense

And yes you can find it way cheaper, for even 2€/g, but it's dirt

I uSe tHUnDerBiRD

Amd then you discover your plate is several versions behind the curry and you have to align your plate version to use it

And then your stomach has a compilation error during digestion and you're stuck with a half digested meal

@Oktokolo I had to, the only reason I had to do this refactory is that this program, instead of writing one row in a table per month, like it was supposed to do, it was doing something else.
In a table where I expected about 20 rows (~ 2 years of usage) I found 45kk rows, that table alone was over 4GB.

The guy before me did a series of horrible mistakes and everytime the user refreshed a list the program was adding about a 1k of records in this table and more shit somewhere else, for NO FUCKING REASON.

It took me a month to refactor this garbage, having to fight myself to continue and finish it.

Today is shit, tomorrow the pile of shit is going to be a bit bigger
Until the day the shit gets so huge you start only seeing it and nothing else

Nope, probably hanging myself in a few years or less, before I turn 30 (not joking)

@Oktokolo the first comment, from this guy, "alla mejo proprio" can be translated to "at the bestzz" (with a couple of random Zs)
My comment next to it "revisione ... Perché..." means "revision ... Why..."

@localpost that line was going to break after 2032 so no worries