@Maer

> Code reviews

About that....we dont have code reviews. A lot of developers already addressed this to the management but we still don't have it. The management doesn't really care as long as it's working

Thank you so much for your advice :) I have much to learn about the corporate life.

@Maer He even told me that there are no such thing as coding standards. When I was developing a real time application, he told me that websockets are for the lazy people and he advised me to just use the long polling way. Also, there are no communications or whatsoever. It's like "you're on your own". We tried to reach out to him but he doesn't really seem to listen. It is said that this senior developer has been working alone for many years. It wasn't my intention to "tell them how to run things", but rather I wanted to improve things. I just wanted him to be aware that he is working with other people now.

> Self relection

a. The interaction is poorly handled from my side because I expected the team leader to be objective, in which I now realized that I shouldn't have. Also, I do not know how to sugarcoat my words. I was pretty much direct to the point.
b. I hope the above answer brings some light regarding this.

@Maer

> In addition, it does sound to me, as if you are freshly graduated, come into their workplace and want to tell them how to run things.

I've been working with two years and in that two years, I have worked with different senior developers. I have no problems working with them because they do follow the coding standards that is set in the company. Additionally, they also know the good practices. We also communicate properly when it comes to system design. When I was assigned to my current team, I was shocked because of how he is. He codes without planning. He is proud that he copy pasted his codes. It is okay if he tested it but there are times where my colleagues and I would find bugs in his transaction if he only tested it at least once. Naturally, when the testing period came, we ended up fixing a lot of his bugs. Other than that, he just modifies the code base that may affect our transactions too without telling us.

@Maer

> Well, they weren't and you should never expect people to be. It is great when they are, but this is something to hope for, not something to expect.

You're right. Being a team leader and being objective is ideal but it also doesn't mean that I should expect those from other people. It was my fault on that part. Thank you for making me realize this.

@Stuxnet and the fancams 💀

@Stuxnet when an idol's birthday is coming, some fans actually organize some projects that involves tree planting, volunteering and book donations so it's not THAT bad

@F1973 i guess that really is the greatest teacher of all. Thank you so much for taking the time to interact with me 🙂 i will always keep your words in my mind

i love two kpop girl groups (red velvet and blackpink) but yeah, even an avid fan like me agrees that majority of fans are really toxic. not to mention, some of those fans even break into their idol dorms to plant cameras. these fans are called sasaengs. they are very obsessive and the agencies take advantage of that. they would release different versions of an album (sometimes one version per member) and those fans will buy all the versions. peak capitalism.

@F1973 im sure you have your reasons for letting go of your younger self and i respect that. as for me, i still want to find a path where i can keep my values and still earn enough to make a living. if i let go of my values, i think i'll be very unhappy and i would hate myself eventually. i know it's going to be hard and yes, my values may not get me anywhere but i still want to try. it's our life afterall, we should always choose the path that we want to take.

thank you so much for telling me the story though. i will always keep it in my mind. i appreciate it 🙂

the reason for my values runs deep. my father is a corporate dude. he's mean all the time. he has no values or whatsoever. he doesnt have any real friends. his own wife pretends to love him. his own children hate him. i just dont want to become the person i hate.

@F1973

why is that? what did you miss about your younger self the most?

no not yet... i will check it out 🙂

@F1973 it feels weird. it doesnt feel right :(( i always thought that if there are any problems, you should always try your best to fix it. if there are issues, address it. in the corporate life, do i really have to trade my values? is the corporate life going to form me into a person i dont want to be? if so... are you guys...happy?

@Maer I understand what you are saying. Right now, I still have a lot to understand about social dynamics. I am pretty introverted so I tend to shy away from people. I acknowledge that I am still incapable of leading my own team but I want to work on it. Can you perhaps suggest an activity that I can do to equip myself for this?

I am also very interested to know how you came with the conclusion that I handled the social interactions 'stupidly'. I want to know more about your thoughts if it's okay with you 🙂

"People take critique emotionally", yes some people do. But is it so stupid of me to think that a team leader shouldn't? After all, if there are things that should be improved, shouldn't we address it?

Yes, there are two sides in every story. However, even though I wanted to hear the side of the other, I don't think they'll ever tell me the truth. If there is anything I learned from my stay here in the company, it's that people are never really honest with you.

@gibus the only thing that led me to think it was okay is that they always tell me that it's okay to be open to them. That they are always open to criticisms. That we are a team and all that big speech about teams. how we can help each other improve blah blah blah i guess that words are all for show

@F1973 the corporate world seems pretty fucked up, huh? i will work so hard to rise through the ranks and make sure no one would ever experience this on my team

@electrineer you sir, you made my day haha yeah im planning to leave this hellhole. im hoping i can avoid these kinds of peeps in my next company but they are everywhere sadly. how do u even handle peeps like them?

@melezorus34 yknow it's also funny how ignorant people stick with each other

i tried working for more than 12 hours, i could feel the back of my eyes pulsate

Awww that really sucks. When they terminated your contract, have you tried to reason out with them? If so, what did they say?

@ingenioushax Ohhhhh no i was rewriting it because I have to. Sorry i failed to mention this in my rant but the transaction I am currently working on is based on an existing project that the senior dev previously created. Basically, my assigned task is to copy his codes and modify it to suit the new project. So no escaping for me i guess haha iwannadiepleaseshootme

@craig939393 the thing is, i have a bond with the company lol i should have known it's just a ploy to overwork their employees