@Demolishun im only racist against white females... the type with blonde hair and blue eyes

@typosaurus yea... it's been confirmed now (by an MD literally named Lucy Liu... just so i dont actually feel sane) apparently ive had a reactivation of HHV-6 that ive been fighting off, slowly losing against, for 2½ decades (at least most of that time also causing meningitis, brain and spinal cord swelling)

now im just trying to figure out how best to acknowledge it to blood family, less close friends and others who kinda need to know... with the least amount of shit like 'youre so brave\strong\an inspiration' as possible. i already get that crap for random ppl just noticing my left hand not being functional. *sigh*

@awesomeest
oh... it doesn't show the original size...

60px X 60px, each square being 30x30

it's literally just 6 colours rotating in a 4x4 grid... lines up perfectly if tiled... still will induce a headache if u tile it as someones desktop background... cuz if they try to focus on or read anything it literally hurts. could be legit basic terrorism lol

@Demolishun
back in early middle school, on runescape (yea... i had my reasons), there was some kid who started to get some messed up form of a power trip via pretending to be a god cuz HE could make animated gifs...

this was back when commoners first started becoming aware... there was the ad spammed sites thatd compile them and the basic af gui tools (trojans) you could dl to make them.

i found this behaviour\the reactions fascinating (autistic af but unaware i was autistic)... he was picking on other kids over that nonsense. some kid i was slightly more fond of (and paid waaaay too much attention to things i did... but kept it to himself so.... meh) was really upset and assuming(rightfully ofc) i knew how to make them too, begged me to to make him stfu (pretty sure he was implying some version of time-exhaustive kiddie war).

5m later via mspaint i made this... then wrote a simple persistent batch script that kept tiling this as his desktop and screensaver. simple and effective

technically gifs always work if they show an image... i think u mean animated gifs brah

@cafecortado
duuude...(somewhat irrelevant) look up the music video for TLC no scrubs.

i was trying to explain old 'good'(shit) music videos to this girl that worked for me and randomly was searching and clicked on that. there's beyond a nip slip near the end. totally brought my point home though lol

@Lensflare not sure if you're being sarcastic... but it does totally seem like something youd do.

i built myself a laptop (saws and solder), taught myself basic binary... fortran and C... wrote the drivers for my frankenlaptop then made a little server to host websites i was building for small businesses. i never actually considered making a personal site til years later and that was for my arts and crafts business... i totally used to have the domain coolcrafts.com (i need to see wtf it is now)

@SidTheITGuy pretty sure u still have it. itd make so much sense, given your rapid irrational demeanor and persistent aggressive yet nonsensical ideas. tbh, it lines up perfectly.

@donkulator dude... that was fancy\rich and\or very late 90s...

i remember collecting all the AOL floppy disks they gave out for free to wipe and use them for storage.

my friend's mom's laptop had BSOD so was going to be thrown away.... the BSOD also included the phone number to microsoft tech support, answered by real people in the USA, and a machine-specific code that had to be given to a live rep with the serial number so they could get the code to give you, the professional, to go beyond the BSOD and fix whatever.

After successfully fixing it (and in hindsight still wondering why no one ever mentioned to me that i was a little (7\8) yr old girl bullying tech support) i did get AOL running... on the 4mb of total RAM.

@netikras
ask chatgpt something more fun.... like to interpret satirical, non-english, song lyrics... or explain async functions looping\priority patterns, while tossing in a param thats an immediate exception (like python, nesting async inside of sync) but u gotta mask it with other valid crap.

i once got chatgpt stuck in a failing logic loop by feeding it paul graham's "how to disagree" and asking it for debate practice, where their stance was disagreeing with those points.

tbh... if i thought to use a tech\computer solution to comparing seemingly identical images... id have totally just converted them to the non-compressed individual pixel data then ran a basic iteration loop to compare\flag non-identical pixels...

yea... im a dinosaur

@Lensflare actually, there was some less renowned methods too... im oddly knowledgeable at this specifically (had a, extremely blown out of logical proportion, intense debate(totally friendly) with an islamic scholar starting with the astrolabe).

my favourite outdated star-comparison method is the one where theyd make a small scale image of the night sky (there were several methods from essentially child labour to an array of magnifying lenses and chemical compounds reactive to lights and\or heat... im fond of the precise use of magnesium,... but i like fire)...

then, theyd use a form of old telescope-like thing and a mirror and a lense to account for any differences

so now i need to ask some friends to watch my eyes (when\if im off-guard and comparing images).

These things have always been easy to a level of boredom and wonder as to why others dont just know the answers like i do. seriously... since at least age 4\preschool.

I never heard about the eye crossing thing. I guess it could've been something i innately picked up so early that ive been oblivious to it... but im also ridiculously fast with all those image search things like where's waldo, find the X amount of *somethings* and those things in kids magazines (like Highlights) with the list of items to find... though comparatively, im much slower (for me) at the last ones.

i do have a near (dyslexia) eidetic\photographic\whatever it's currently called memory and some insane level of innate pattern recognition (well beyond my comprehension or full command of)... so now im super curious.

typing this... ironically, i don't think i know how to cross my eyes... at least intentionally.

@retoor
I was very tempted just now to quickly hack your site and fix the typos/minor language issues.

Tbh, even as much as typos in good content annoy me... it was probably only 50% of my temptation. The other half was likely my urge to procrastinate since what im doing now is boring but i gotta do it...

*sigh*

Im gonna zone out/clear my head, then go back to hours of hyperfocus to get this boring administrative crap done.

@retoor just read your bio...

If you like collabing on stuff and dont mind signing an nda or 2, between my company and the new(im literally writing up the legal stuff now) partnership company with a very experienced(impressive CV too) dev friend we have tons of space for people we can tolerate to collab... whether in actual code writing or some version of an advisory capacity.

Technically im also fluent in Dutch... super rusty in verbal communication and i assume my grammar/word choice has dropped quite a bit due to years of mainly just reading it ...but i do fully comprehend the vast majority of typed Dutch and most spoken ...if slow and clear enough (aka, would appreciate the practice)

Here's my info if interested (anyone else is welcome to use it... im not exactly hard to find... unless youre quite dense):

Tg- awesomeest
Discord- sara.awesomeest
Email- awesomeest@gmail.com

@typosaurus
I dont like humans enough for extended interactions like that.

A couple weeks ago I drove 14hrs away(i live in michigan, had to go to a southern and west(of me) state) for business (albeit business involving a good friend).

He/the thing i was there to advise on, are definitely rural. Nearest motel/hotel/etc was over a half hr away so I stayed with him and his partner (and their flock of mostly chihuahuas). Not a tiny house or a ton of people, just 2 people i actually, genuinely like/respect/typically enjoy the company of... even had a room on the opposite side of the house.

Very laid back/no issues with basic pajamas (giant tshirt&boxers/pj pants)... still very relieved when i got home,minimal clothing, just Boomie(scardey-cat, part pittbull, doggo), JSON(tortoise) and me, in the middle of a corn field.

Don't get me wrong, there's several ppl i like, loads intriguing enough to enjoyably study(ie Sid). i just req periods of effectively having the whole world f off.

@typosaurus
Hmmm

I was just stating what's actually been happening in my life.

That said, there is no real "cure" for any herpes virus. They just get forced into submission and go dormant. There's cases of, i believe, all, but definitely the overwhelming majority of "herpes" viruses (there's way more, most quite common, than people realise) reactivating after a period of dormancy.

Best known example of this is chickenpox. Elderly people (their immune system not as robust as earlier) will often get Shingles, a very painful rash that is like an evolution (i mean by presentation) of the chickenpox virus(a herpesvirus). Once you get it, you always have it... under the right conditions, it can come back with a vengeance.

@Lensflare

Side rant, that may give some additional insight into my atypical thought patterns about linguistics...

In 4th gr(near Y2K bs), my favourite book became, and still is, 1984 (read animal farm 1st... ran out of encyclopaedias i hadnt read).

I don't mind colloquialisms, or almost any new terminology, but I am strongly against proliferating the concept of 'it dont matter how i talk if u know what i mean'. Imo USA is the worst.

I can (have, for good pay) explain and theoretically prove the real fallout/dangers in losing the ability of non-colloquial, custom, communication.

Basic/already occurring problems are detrimental at the personal level, yet not inspiring change. The current overly tolerant of... nearly everything, incl harmful thought/actions/etc, promotes social decline, propagating the issues.
Deny a job, as they can't form sentences or have a very limited vocab, explain why= risk being a social media villain/potential lawsuits, don't= propagate the issue.

@Lensflare yea... im literal af... like to a fault.

Though apparently i messed with you a bit too well in german, i do actually know language, to a degree beyond what i want to publicly acknowledge(feel free to inquire elsewhere).

I innately tend heavily towards original, literal, meanings and/or the etymological roots of terminology.

WARNING: Side Rant
Meanings of words like "selfish" typically annoy me.

Originally, "selfish" literally meant not considering others. No ill will, greed, recognition of some negative thatd effect others, then just doing it anyways despite knowing the probable harms...
Just simply, never having that spark/urge/sight to consider people/things outside of one's mental thought bubble.

The original def of selfish is how most autistics (incl me) innately are. Nothing to do with ego/like/dislike of ppl. literally, not considering-- like having blinders

Now, selfish means you know youre causing hardship but do it anyways to get what you want.

@retoor
Make a bunch of programs/scripts/networks/encryption methods/etc... but do it like the mentality of those apocalypse preppers that invest so much time/energy/money/etc into their supposed survival.

So going super overboard, but leaving out anything involving thought or learning outside of an overly simplified scope... like how most preppers learn about guns/knives/making pointy sticks... etc... yet dont consider packing a microscope and some basic knowledge/highly magnified pics of common protozoa or very easy to make, broad use, pharmaceuticals like penicillin (aka bread mold that's still one of the most widely used antibiotics in existence).

Those prepper people never learn about basic chemical reagents either...foolish imo

@Demolishun acc to syd's standards, im pretty sure jeff foxworthy is racist towards a large chunk of the US south.

I used to (sometimes still do if someone seems a bit too entranced) start talking about racism (just a few sentences) and how wrong it is... to someone who was boring me/looking for something beyond friendship... then directly tell them (changing tempo, volume and pitch just enough to signal extra importance) that I'm only at all racist, even just a little bit, to one group of people, blondes with blue eyes... especially the females. Then quickly cite some random traits i claimed justified this highly specific distaste.

Then id see how long i could keep it going for.

Anyone who hasn't seen a pic of me... clearly blonde with bright blue eyes.

The expressions when they'd finally realise i was directly depicting myself (if it took longer for them to catch on id add more details) was always amusing... esp the dumb ones who weren't sure if i realised i was describing myself

@donkulator
But how soft is too soft?

I mean, i kinda think about it like this:
Whatever traits a colon, or anything, innately has or is expected to have due to being one specific entity within the group that is initially defined with sets of characteristics to identify the base traits of the individuals in it... thatd be the norm/expected start that wouldn't need any explicit declaration unless outside those values.

So like bread is normally soft, but if you ask someone what a bagel or baguette is theyd likely explicitly define that it's harder/denser/not as soft as something like mass produced sandwich bread.

...im now realising im defining the world by oop class structures... but w/ev.

So i think if youre specifically declaring a soft colon... it must be remarkably more soft than colons tend to be... which seems intriguing and dangerous.

Thinking about it... would the contents of a colon even be included in the traits of the colon itself? Genuinely curious now.

@SidTheITGuy SID! You did it! Im so proud of you!

You finally admitted your proclivities to suck. That's a great first step!

@retoor
Listen... he's not sexist... just sexually insecure. You gotta remember, even though most of the world is currently flooded with an array of increasing 'genders' and the attitude similar to parents telling toddlers that they can be whatever they want when they grow up, dont listen to or believe anythingelse-- applied to behavioural gender traits...

India isn't quite as inviting to people like syd who just wanna be a pretty pretty princess.

So, like any childhood bully, he attacks, using topics close to his internal strife, trying to believe his own lies.

@SidTheITGuy
Next time you wanna dress up like Cinderella or Belinda, you do it! Don't let the idea of society's negative views of you stop you!

@retoor
Yea... he tried that on me. He lost.

Something he clearly didn't know about me, but any childhood friend or close teen and beyond friend knows as basic fact, is that since i turned 5, I've had TONS of Indian friends... acquaintances, employees, relationships, business partners (which for me tends to also mean they are some of my best friends)...etc. I even have a 'sister' in india due to one of those programs where u adopt a needy child for some meager 20$ or whatever a mo... i picked her off a Christmas tree when i was 4, then by 8 got really annoyed that due to the program's rules i couldn't just send her half of my money (i was a rich 8yr old dev), so made a fund to send her gifts/money as soon as i was 18. But even before she knew any of that, joseline has called me her sister and we keep in contact (she's a nurse now).

Realistically, i probaly have more indian friends than him, not even counting temp employees etc.

Him calling me racist is honestly hysterical.

@Lensflare oh i know. But dont we all know that sydney is plenty neurotic enough that he's likely scrollimg through posts looking for his name ad nauseum multiple times a day?

I have a very low tolerance for envs that arent mine... so ofc, i also have scripts to do stuff like remap system variables... even to an external hard drive for several programs, drivers, their paths, the registry keys of shit that annoys me... regex to check for bad registry keys... and stuff that puts it back to normal when im done.

Me without regex and a tolerable env... historically, that's dangerous.

Dude... if you only knew...

Since i was a kid (7 or 8... so 25yrs ago) i started using basic regex for shit like filtering logs...

Then i started scripting the shit that annoyed me... like everything default set to run... updates, scans, sysrestore... and stuff like temp files, recycle bin, internet history... etc

Then i got annoyed going through log outputs, including ones i generated from manually scripting and automatically checking to make sure nothing broke... and keyloggers (several reasons and varieties)... malware thatd just change little shit about their files so it wouldnt match the lists, or sht that mimicked/deleted real files (a HUGE regex script so id know what exactly got changed in updafes or when file info had tiny mismatches)

So many scripts by middle school... too many macros to tolerate hotkeys... so i started making my own file extensions, regex to find/sort/relocate and the program to read

Ofc cli regex to generate/append custom files

All b4 16. Imagine now

Well duh.

Think about it in middle school and beyond terms. When the teacher makes people work in groups for 1 grade. Teachers know damn well that the one who actually gives a shit is gonna end up doing all the work... anyone who knows that hard working kid then tries to get in their group.

But... if you're given an assignment, school, social, adult life/work, and you do it well and fast/efficiently... now it's your job forever, plus another job for the extra time they know you could have.

Same thing applies at blue collar (and below) jobs. You work at fast food, walmart, some random store... work well/better than others you get a fancy manager/team leader title... and a few cents an hr raise. You also get to deal with more bs, stay later, clean up coworker bs & get yelled at by strangers for sht u have no control in.

Why do u think so many people do the bare minimum to not get fired?

@CoreFusionX
It's case by case imo. ChatGPT responses can be amusing or just wordy trash.

Ads used to be more creative... or so bad, but clearly took someone a lot of effort, that it's highly amusing.

Both types are now just rooted in nonsensical irony.

AI - the literal point of AI is that it's meant to LEARN... yet the vast majority of 'AI' use for responses just spits out an answer, not even allowing a direct way to disagree/point out what's wrong/correct it that gets fed back into the 'AI'... effectively making it no longer an AI.

Ads- used to take agencies, events, tangible items... things like giving away a certain car to whoever touches it the longest... i mean, really, it's total nonsense at first glance but the exposure, and rate of increased obsession with owning one, is well beyond the car value.

Now, digital ads everywhere. Like a game w/o ads, in in-game ads & pay ppl to dl apps. Cost tons more per user than shipping thousands of branded keychains(or w/ev) irl.

@Tounai nope... was already in the cart