I feel like I am not supposed to be alive anymore

No matter how severe your sin, you have the right to live, even if you were using JS and convinced others to use it.

@Lensflare Steady on old chap.

@Lensflare what about the guy who wrote v8 engine

Life's long, it's nearly impossible to suck for always. You will have better times. This can be something great happens, or you learned to have Peace with your situation and that's fine to, if. You have the real peace. That's why old people are so relaxed, they accepted all and are peaceful

@retoor oh yea. And then theres angry people. I never understood it. Really uncomfortable to be next to those!

Been there more times than I can remember.

If you've made up your mind already, then what's the rush? Stay around for a while longer, see how much worse it's gonna get over a week or a month. You don't have to care for it, just stay here for entertainment.

You can nick yourself any time, there's no need to hurry... But when you do, you won't see what happens next. That's the unfortunate part of the deal... So stay aroud just for shits and giggles. Sit back, relax and watch what happens next :)

this attitude kept me going through ice and fire, when all I wanted was to give up and sink right where I stood. And it still is :)

@feuerherz stop riding the bus and you'll not see them again. But since you're a student, ofc you take bus. But immediately buy a car when you can, you will thank yourself. I didn't buy a car directly when I was 18. I thought I didn't need it. I was OK with public transport. In east cities it's ok. But in west, so much people I don't want to share a space with, I don't want to see them, it affects my mood

@netikras exactly, learn to care less and look around in main time.

Regarding on checking on how much worse it gets - I once stayed too long with dramatic consequences. But I once left a company to soon too, just by being mad about smth. This companies were after eachother, I left mad, and then I ended up at the first company I could find (not much requirements, from outsourcing I've learned that any company can be great or suck, so meh).

Problem is, not giving a fuck would've saved me, but I couldn't not give a fuck because work was my whole life. I didn't have a family at home (back then, didn't want that, now I do) and my collegues were my friends also outside work. So when it got too worse, it felt like life falling apart, what was kinda true since I had nothing different. I noticed that I cared way more than others, but they did have smth else in life. Then I realized, a family is good to have and even had one for a while and I was right. Had step kiddo❤️. Ended bad sadly

@jestdotty your avatar doesn't look angry at all

@retoor I used to ride the bus as a kid. Saw some wild shit on that bus. We had a retarded dude that would ask people: "Do you get midnight?" People would look puzzled and he would just laugh. It was the funniest joke to him. I also used to tell people on the sidewalk as the bus went by that they dropped something. I was trolling back then, lol. One time this homeless dude gets on. He has this plastic mug (the giant kind) and he moves and some liquid comes out the straw onto the floor. It smelled so strong of alcohol. I wonder if it was like straight gin or something. He was one of the happy riders too.

@Demolishun good that you see crazy people in the bus, if you don't see the crazy guy in the bus, you are the crazy guy ((c) ted - How I met your mother)

nah, it wasn’t you.

You are important. You have value.

@Demolishun Like a Nullable.