I just want to talk to people, more people, new people, friends, anyone,

I want to explore their culture, their life, I want to learn.

Otherwise I feel like I'm wasting my life.

I just want to go out and explore the world.

I would like to meet a real Zulu warrior. I saw a special about them and they are some bad ass dudes. This guy had a scar on his chest when a lion came after him. He fended it off with a shield and big ass knife/sword. I don't care where you come from that is serious balls, skill, and adrenaline.

Then there are the mountain people who carry AK-47s and have snow leopards as pets in Asia. I don't know the story behind that, but very interesting.

Come talk on rock.molodetz.nl if it's not down.

@Demolishun lions actually have it genetically encoded to be afraid of humans

we would hunt lions back in the day. fuckers are terrified of us

years back I realized I have a socializing addiction, but I do not know why

in reality socializing irritates me. I always think it will be rewarding but it never is. so it baffles me I feel the urge to engage in it. I'm literally exhibiting the psychology of a gambling addict (which is strange, because I've gambled various times&felt nothing, & even MMPI military test says I'm not addiction prone). every time I think I'll get something rewarding out of it but instead I feel disappointment, boredom, or irritation, anger. if people approach me I feel anxiety or defensive / territorial irritation. I will be excited to meet people but then I meet them. excited to talk to people but then I talk to them. it's the worst

the other day I thought maybe an old friend instilled in me an insecurity about it&maybe I'm overcompensating ever since? I looked up to that friend a lot & they said my life's regret would be loneliness. I never feel lonely tho. they thought I was socially disabled I think

@jestdotty Orca's stay away from humans because we hunted them so much, but with them, it's actually socially communicated 🤯 (orphaned or otherwise estranged orcas will still attack humans)

For me, I can be the same if there isn't an easy click (same hobbies). What helped for me was doing some research on the topic, I'm also a "we must meet 3 times before I'll properly talk to you" person. 101 possible reasons really ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Hope it gets better for you

@jestdotty humans are social creatues, and our brain seems to reward us for it since it's better for our survival, we can't survive alone, I guess that's why we can get addicted

I'm sorry if I said the obvious, but if you know more on this topic please let me know

@kanyewest obvious about what and topic about what

yeah, you get oxytocin from socializing. it calms you. people who don't socialize get anxious due to the lack of oxytocin. you can get oxytocin in other ways though, and i've always scored low neuroticism and high resilience so that would mean it's not oxytocin / cortisol axis issue. oxytocin also activates neuroplasticity, aka, you get more creative and learn faster, less stuck thoughts if you're liable to those

also if it was oxytocin I would feel satisfied and not annoyed... it's the opiate of the masses, the original that all others try to copy

@jestdotty I'm just learning about Oxytocin,

I CAN UNDERSTAND WHY I AM ANXIOUS NOW.

@kanyewest meditate to this and see if you feel different: https://youtube.com/live/...-

the comments are funny

Some people seem to still not realize that they are talking to a troll.

Obviously he wants us to say something like this:
"But you are a racist, you can‘t be interested in foreign culture!"

@Lensflare If you're not interested in foreign culture, how can you be a good racist?

@BordedDev not sure if you are joking or not but racism comes from aversion to a culture, not interest in it.
This rant is as fake as everything else that comes from this user.

@Lensflare I'm just referencing the meme phrase of "Me Studying X History So I Can Be Racist More Accurately".

You can find something disgusting doesn't mean you can't have an interest in subjects around it, e.g. I need to unclog my sink, and well, the gunk in the pipes disgusts me