Day 27 of starving myself to death challenge. I feel straight up euphoric.

Mania! mania! mania! Happeeehh kiki.

@retoor One of these days I'll have to visit Wikipedia to look up that 'Mania' thing...

...but my laziness is strong.

@D-4got10-01 it's a rare thing what happens to people that do not sleep for a long time and will lead to psychosis in the end. And I'm talking about periods of over a week. It's the happiest time of your life, your intelligence goes drastically up, you'll lose hardcore weight but in the end you have to pay the price being the biggest price you've ever paid. I ended up in a three months psychosis once and the recovery from that was very brutal. Never really did recover from it but since shortly, I'm maybe not recovering only from my last but my first as well. There's a change that I'll become better than ever if that's possible - because my default behavior already was diagnosed manic but what do they know, I'm like that since kiddo. Fuck them. I skipped two night easy as kiddo without consequences. Not tired, nothing, no effect. So, it's easy for me to go over the Grey line to a point that I don't have to and Can't sleep anymore. And then you're fucked fucked for a year or 3

@retoor Damn.

Well, I'm only partially familiar w/ the thing, then. Personal record is 47h w/o sleep.

Came in for work on Sunday, left sometime on Tuesday.

Drank insane amount of 0xc0ffee && things became quite surreal.

Somehow I don't feel the need to experience that for the second time.

/* Did get a small promotion after the stunt, though. */

@D-4got10-01 Weak ;P we used to do LANs for 72+ hours

@BordedDev Well, that was work-related. Either way, I felt terribly, so I don't feel like reliving that experience.

A good rest is important.

@D-4got10-01 manias went differently for me. I needed sleep, but just 5 hours felt like enough. I physically couldn't sleep more than that because of all that energy flowing through my whole body, but erratic it was not! I was in complete control over it. Just imagine what a person with the IQ of 140+ can do with that kind of power. Your intelligence get boosted drastically, just as retoor said

This is why people act unpredictably in mania. I just coded away

@kiki Had a friend like that for many years.

For him it kind of went away w/ age - sometime past 42 / 45 /* Can't remember well. */ his body would refuse to take that kind of beating, anymore.

...something to look forward to, ey?

@D-4got10-01 yeah, getting older was probably my issue. Just couldn't keep up the speed anymore and I always did everything with the attitude "I won't die from it" but didn't see this comming. When you're younger your body is invincible indeed but when I got around 28 - things derailed. My mother same, on same age. I derail much harder than she does but very rare. She does derail a bit very frequently. Still, in general I feel so good that I'm OK with it, I'm more on manic side, rarely depressed. Bad only two in my life. Manic tendencies are always there. Thats why the mental hospital kept drugging/injecting me until I couldn't do anything for 1,5 year. Because in their eyes it wasn't normal behavior. That's something I won't forget soon tho. The injections are forced, in a half year not anymore but maybe I keep taking them. It's very dangerous to quit them. Taking them is very unhealthy, but it would be hypocrite complaining about that since I abused substances as well. Meh :)