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joas
7y

Shit, I lost the rant again. Well let's begin from the top.

This is little bit personal but I'm not keeping any of this as a secret. I'm a hyperactive thinker at nights (ADHD). I must write this down, although it's well over middle-night at this point.

I just discovered that I might be better writer whilst I'm sleepy, hungry, out of affection of the meds or all of the above.
And may I remind you that I'm not a native English speaker or writer.

* Saved to clipboard, so I won't lose this again *

I've written now 2 long rants, 8 issue reports (devRant) and a loong collab posting in this one sitting, or rather laying. It feels like I'm writing perfectly without missing a beat. I know that's not right, it's the main symptom in ADHD; My brain is actually running slower than an average, much slower. That's a reasonable explanation for the “fast” innovation.
I'm running without restrictions of a normal human, I don't "overthink" every single word and rather go with the flow. That's what spell checkers are for.

* Save *

You can probably see what's happening. It's certainly also true when writing code. I left out the normal cleaning up (except for the grammar, found 10 errors).

It's pretty much the same thing as I'd imagine being drunk or even high.

I must not be the only one.

* Writing tags... *
* Update error count *
* Recover one part from memory *

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  • 1
    For anyone worrying about my metal health in the future, and most importantly myself who won't be able to recall everything after a while; Yes I won't most likely sleep tonight / morning, yes I'll contact my doctor the first thing after the sun rises, no it doesn't kill me.
  • 1
    Fellow ADHD here, keep hanging in there 💪🏻
  • 1
    @frickerg Will do.
  • 0
    I don't take meds, or was diagnosed to have AD(H)D.
    But, I do feel very familiar with this.

    Night > Day
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    @xewl
    If I don't take them, I sleep even worse. Been trying and doubting that, but after all that's why I take them for. It's the best I got at the moment. It seems like it limits my cognitive functions, but that's simply enough not the thought. Although not far either. I hope you understand what I mean. It's not the time for fooling around, meds makes this life less foggy and doable.
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    And it was ADD for me also, but I'd rather generalize because it seems like the only differense in the symptom group is what's visible outside. We are good at hiding the problems.
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    But feel free to disagree, I took the same path since at first only things the medication did was causing more sleep problems and stomachake. Until the working one was finally tested.
  • 0
    Thinking I need to get myself diagnosed now, lmao

    Dem feels.
  • 0
    @xewl
    I know.

    Do you ever think that you needed glasses but you could be used to seeing badly?

    I think of it almost daily.
  • 1
    @joas lmao, yeah.. self contradiction.. luckily I see fine ✓ö✓
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