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simonblack312200dYou shouldn't fear it but you shouldn't ignore it (which would probably be unhealthy longterm).
You could try things like meditation and mindfulness
If you are "free-spirited" you could try psychedelics in small amounts
Also look into "disassociation" if you haven't already. I think it's much more common amongst programmer types than derealization
Root58393200dI'm not sure if it's similar, but:
Due to physical abuse growing up, I experience varying severities of dissociation whenever I (or anything else) hits my head. The harder, the more severe, and the longer the dissociation persists.
It feels like nothing is real, like I'm looking at everything from a distance through thick glass, and like everything is happening to someone else and I'm just an uncaring observer.
Sometimes it takes many many hours to go away. It's awful, but while it's happening, it's happening to someone else and I can't really care. I hate it.
The only things I've found that help (and even then, only a little) are strong pleasant smells and feeling textured things like spackle. Those feel real even if nothing else does, and help to bring me back, if only a little.
just8littleBit3422200d@Root luckily I’ve never felt detached from myself or my body. It’s just everything else. Especially what I see but also what I feel.
Have you had this for long periods at a time?
For me it doesn’t stop but I only notice it when I have a calm moment. Basically when I try to enjoy something.
I don’t wanna sound self-pity-ish (i know that’s not a word), I’m glad that it’s not that bad in my case. I’m just curious about how other people feel.
Also hope that you will get rid of it somewhen. Sounds kinda hard to live with.
Root58393200d@just8littleBit That's good. I'm glad it's something different.
It's pretty manageable for me because it only happens in response to head trauma (even when it's very minor like bumping my head on a cabinet door). The longest it has lasted (outside of abuse-heavy childhood) was a few days, with the average being only hours. It ruins the rest of my day, but it doesn't last terribly long anymore.
milkygreen132200dI've been told that I was "unresponsive to stimulus" on a few occasions when I was deep in the zone, which I think of as autopilot (screening out distractions). I know I do it when I'm just typing (no code) because housemates have made jokes about it. One time I was told (at work) about 3 hours of stuff that happened while I was debugging and I had absolutely no awareness of it at all. So... Kinda sorta maybe vaguely the same thing, but not as serious as derealisation. I understand what @Root is referring to.
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