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I'm feeling empty. All my friends and roomates went home. But I stayed in hostel. I haven't touched my laptop from last 3 days. I'm just lying on bed staring at ceiling. I'm not even in a relationship, so I call my mother everyday to get the feeling of being loved.
This quarantine is strange. First few days I spent my time playing video games, watching Netflix, laughing at memes. But Now I'm feeling empty. Very strange thoughts are now occupying my mind. I'm sleeping 10+ hrs, and staring at ceiling or outside window most of the time. My room is a mess. Forget washing hands, I don't even feel like standing up to switch on lights.
I'm not saying I feel sad or depressed, I just feel very strange.

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  • 0
    What's it like in a hostel?
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    Struggling to understand how your life would be any different if Coronavirus wasn't a thing. You think all this is happening just because your mates left?
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    @rutee07 nothing much. There're no workers
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    @pythonInRelay yes. With friends I never spent a day thinking that much
  • 1
    I've gotten like this before. Everybody was worried it was depression but it wasn't quite that. More shock I think, from suddenly not having anything to do after just previously being so busy that I didn't know whether I was coming or going.
  • 2
    what's it like feeling empty, sad and depressed?
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    @M1sf3t yes. This must be due to sudden change in environment. It'll get back to normal soon
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    @molaram feeling empty like, I'm a stone. No purpose, no emotions, I just exist, observing the world around me
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    @retard Actually sounds pretty peaceful dude. Play guitar or skateboard or something. I've been skateboarding in an underground car park for the last 2 weeks. It's pretty much empty here. I see like 2 people max a day. Play some MMORPG games or something. You're obviously pretty extroverted so you probably get your energy from interacting with people, and without that you're like a flat battery.
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    @retard yea I eventually snapped out of it but it took a week or so. I think I started playing an old video game out of boredom and eventually some random task on there sparked an interest to achieve and everything else slowly fell back in place.

    I was more or less just sleeping all day til then. Not that I wanted to exactly, I just couldn't come up with anything that seemed worthwhile to do with the limited amount of resources I had at the time.
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    Perfect time to start some sort of dev related side project.
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    I relate to that. Special thanks to BF, for calling me every day, or I would've lost my sanity last Monday. I'm also PMSing, so you can guess :P

    And I'm not even that social nowadays anyways. I'm pretty sure my souls was swapped with another from an alternative universe, where I'm a grumpy man in his fifties, living in a city like Mumbai or Delhi or Jakarta or Manila or Shanghai or any similar dense cities, who owns a small grocery store and wears a wifebeater and a pair of mama's shorts and flip flops every day, going bald with a two days unshaven beard and a strong smell of foody body odor. So you can guess how social I am :P

    But yeah, being isolated doesn't do me any favors either. but hey, there are also discord servers, where you can find new friends or play games or basically socialize. I suggest you try that.
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    @retard
    Hah
    You got a mum that loves you?!
    Lucky bastard!
  • 0
    I kind of know that feeling buddy...

    7 years ago I got a job as a engineer in another state... and got to live in a hotel room for 8 months.

    Away from family and girlfriend. Tuff times.

    At first it was cool. I was living in a hotel. Every day people cleaning my room. Washing my clothes... and free food (good food).

    It was awesome for 2 months... than great for 1 month... then ok for 1 more month...the last 4 months were really difficult.

    But I had a xbox360 that I bought with my first salary... and he keep me entertained.

    But dont worry man... everything is temporary. After some time, this will just be something to tell your friends as a memory.
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    Hey, that sorta sounds like depression, m'dude. Like, feeling empty, no motivation, etc. Not going to armchair diagnose you over the internet, but like... if you can talk to a professional then you should. Hell, even if it isn't depression it sounds like something you might want to talk about with someone.
  • 1
    Sounds like a prisoner of war camp.

    For me, today is no different to yesterday, but then I live on an isolated island far far away..

    Interestingly, I notice folk are travelling here to get away from the cities..

    Trouble is, they are arriving infected and needing medical care the moment they get off the boat..
  • 1
    @LaurenKing22 that's why I'm sharing it here :)
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    @pythonInRelay yeah I started trying new things and workouts. It's really helping me out. Thank you! :)
  • 1
    @NoMad you're right, multiplayer games don't make us feel lonely! All the best going through those times
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    @Magauw 'everything is temporary'. This feels good when we're sad and bad when we're happy :)
    Kudos to you spending that much time alone, I can't imagine doing that
  • 1
    @Nanos how can you people live that much away from crowd and don't feel lonely, or is it something wrong with me
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    Guys I tried to meditate, try different workouts, multiplayer games. I'm feeling a lot normal now than before. And more power to you for going through tough days. Thank you for listening to me here and sharing your experiences. That's why I love this place!
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    @retard

    I've had a lifetime of being lonely to practice with !

    Even living in a city you can be lonely if you have no friends..
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