I currently have enough bugs and mosquitoes in my room that it feels like a modern server room in here 😒😒

ffmpeg can go fuck itself! Motherwhoring morons can't even keep a fucking package standard.

And now I can't even install ffmpeg0.10, which I need 😭😭😭😭

Off to find compatibility packages 😢

I think i got food poisoning.

The worst part, is that I'm getting a half-assed migraine-like thing and I cannot look at a monitor for more than a very few seconds.

Fml.

Like, really seriously totally fuck my life in the arse with a... I dunno. Can't think. 😞

I got lecture notes from previous students, and I kid you not, they were all completely entirely fully useless. 😐😐

I do know that this is the nature of research based degrees, but fuck it is frustrating every fucking time.

So, I have been doing observations on Tinder more than participation, and let me tell ya, it's an interesting tool! Although there are exceptions to the rule, but there are some patterns clearly observable to a typical outcast (by choice) such as myself. Feel free to add.

1. Women of tinder are absolutely uninteresting. And mostly unable to write words. And those who do, like yoga and sushi. I mean, if you wanna stand out, maybe don't do what everyone else does.
Some who are more interesting, seem to have an art gallery of/for profile pictures.

2. Men also have an emoji fever. I mean, my age range is 25+ yet I see thes drawings that a 12 yrs old could do better to describe themself. All of whom are "very sporty" as well, which subtly tells me that they've got a lot of free time on their hands. (I work out, but I don't consider it an achievement to work out 2 hours a week. It's a task one does to stay healthy.) which usually means that they don't have ambitions and goals. Is this really the message they wanna send?

3. Bad beards throw me off more than beer belly and baldness. Bad artsy photos throw me off more than bad makeup. Toilet selfies tell me they are self-centered, and vacation photos tell me they are somewhat a show off. Liking to travel is not bad per se, but accompanied by cliché tourist photos, it tells me that they generally follow the herd.

Am I being too judgemental? Do you think social apps make it easier to judge others? Do you think the patterns of behavior in social apps mean something? Do you think these behaviors define us and our goals and dreams or not? Do you think...

Oh, whatever. Maybe I'm just thinking too much into it.
It's fun tho. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Challenge 27362738:

Getting Internet to work 😐

On a student housing, btw.

I sometimes wish we could get parts of some people's personalities, put it in a humanoid, and then forget those people ever existed. (because some people are just so typical but they each come with so much extra baggage)

I'd like to know how we can implement emotions (or understanding of it) or choices of response in humanoids. Like, I really wish I knew how to make bots that could choose how to respond depending on the percept of feeling of the people they are talking to.

I know, sci-fi level of wish. Eh. I'm gonna dream anyways.

Is it just me, or does anyone else also feel like they just wanna go home? 😢

So... Apparently you get fined heavily for downloading torent files and accessing streaming websites in Germany.

Quality of life highly reduced. 😐😐😩
How am I gonna endure the next 2 years? 😱

The designer for tinder's emoticon space must be fired. You just drag the screen up to read the previous stuff you said to this person, and all of a sudden the screen is FILLED WITH FUCKING HEARTS LIKE YOU'RE A PSYCHO WHO SENDS PEOPLE HEARTS IN THE MIDDLE OF A FUCKING CONVERSATION FOR NO REASON!!!

Thank fuck I'm at peace with being the crazy cat/dog lady, or else this level of fuck up could destroy my confidence.

So, I haven't settled in yet, but I have heard so many contradicting stories about dev jobs here. Most of which I've heard from students and university staff, but some of which I also have heard from HR... People (I guess they're people):

1. You can find student work easily. The income isn't bad. (friend and two fellow students) You don't need knowledge of the languages, really, because all you do is in English anyways.

2. You need to know a decent level of language (German B1) to be able to get a job. Else, no {professional, dev} jobs.

3. There are rarely any part-time dev jobs available.

4. You need to find work at a big company or government dependant organizations. (both of which I loath)

5. You'll be OK. There are small companies who need another dev.

6. You have to go to Berlin, if you want a real professional job.

7...

... I can't remember anymore. It's just that let me settle in before you scare me off. I'm not planning on a job for a year-ish either.

P.S. Apparently, you can count Aussies by one hand in this town. Ouch. Maybe I should disguise bettee 😅

Insomnia thoughts:
You know what I need? Something like Tinder, but just for finding friends.

I tell ya what is pissing me off these days: Germany's archaic banking system.

In the days of paypass, paywave, NFC, Android pay and custom banking apps for payment, Germany still uses coins and notes... And kids, that's how I got the flue.

(On another note, it is super hard for a traveller to open a bank account here. Like, ffs, what use would my address registration with a city Council do if I was to ever embezzle money?)

P.S. The weather is good tho 😉

I am at that point of the learning curve... where nothing makes any fucking sense anymore.

There. I said it.
Peace out ✋🎙⬇

Ran into "Access denied" again... (copyright infringement, or so it said)

I don't know when it's gonna get normal to run into this shit.

1. YouTube has share and report in the most annoying places. Everytime I drop my phone (occasionally on my nose, but let's not talk about that...) I accidentally report a video or share it through email with someone I haven't talked to in like 10 years.
So kinda say, if there was an alternative for YouTube app, that would also cut the ad bullshit (seriously, start of every damn song which I don't even know if I'm gonna listen to the whole thing or nah, so like I have to sit through 10 ads for 10 videos, each of which I only listen to less than 10 seconds... This ad-model is bullshit. 😒😒) it's about time you link me that app, which is probs made by Jesus cuz it'd be saving me life.

2. I did some maths today...

That's it. I did maths.
Go home now.

Kidding, I didn't do maths. Anxiety is killing me softly; I kinda don't have the brain for it; all my side projects are hanging from my laptops by a tread; cuz every time. I try to really focus on something, all the other shit and fear of all possible events that "may" happen in future clutters my mind and I literally get so overwhelmed that it gets hard to breathe... (if you start giving me bullshit ideas right now about how I can calm down, I'm not gonna punch you; I'll find your favorite pet and go punch that. 😛)
Like, proj man 101: risk management 101:
1. Identify risks...

And that's where I'm stuck now. I can't identify all the risks. My brain says "withdraw" cuz the risks are many and not all are avoidable or manageable, but my heart is a flamboyant gay teenager in the pride march: yelling "let's go bitches" and waving a flag as it does catwalk through the crowd in the middle of the fucking street.

... Anyhow. I'm tired. Imma go back to sleep.

I sleep in a weird way these days; I sleep in episodes. Every night, I go through one season. I take a break and wake up after a few episodes, remembering only the last part of that episode. It's like before going back to sleep again, I go through "previously, on The Fucked Up Nightmares on Shitz Street".

And imma tell you the last one, in case you don't believe me:
I was in the Whitehouse (which, I've never been to, btw. All news these days is filled with Trump, so I know where this part came from) and I was in charge 🤔, we were in a warehouse or something there, then someone was joking and set something on fire like a blanket or something, I tried to take it away and I took it to the yard/garden and throw it away... On a mattress which then caught fire and they were cleaning the warehouse so shit was out in the garden... Yeah, some garage sale shit in the freaking Whitehouse. 😐 and then, my uncle (or someone who awfully looked like a young version of him) just threw some... Liquid... Which wasn't water (maybs it was vinegar?) on the fire and it ended. Then I went back into the warehouse to take a look at what wasn't burnt and inside the warehouse looked like a makeup store 🤔 and then I saw bats flying out of there and a baby bat latched onto my finger and I was shaking my hand violently to get it off (It's lion shaped face was scary, not gonna lie) and as it fell off, I woke up.

The end.
Goodnight. 😴

P.S. Sorry for typos. Can't proof read. Too sleepy.

Majority of times, chome's translate does a better job at translating a website than the EN option, which btw, DOES NOT APPEAR ON TOP OF THE HOMEPAGE (or in a menu somewhere up there) IN SO MANY CASES... ("How to fail at a simple design 101") isn't this like like a design convention or something?

Like, I don't know who's your targeted demo but there is 1 in 1,000,000 (Europeans should read: 1.000.000) (😒😒) possibility that some poor tourist or expath has to look something up. And just so you know: You failed him! 😐😐😐

I haven't had the time to develop anything for the past month or so and that's saddening. 😔

(I have been studying a human language that I still barely understand...)

Installed Allo.
So fucking ugly.
Urghhhhhhh.

You know what sucks? That I'm looking for new phones and all I see is no dust and water proof, headphone jacks disappearing (great. Now I should remember to recharge my headphones too! 😡), not many have fast charging (it's 20-fucking-18. Catch up already), and a lack of expandable memory (No, I don't want cloud services for all my -maybe naked- photos. I wanna get the memory out of this one and in the next one)...

Like, what is happening? Do you, phone maker, wanna make something that people need, or force people to use the shit you wanna make and sell? smh...

Isn't this ironic? That I get notified (gdpr'd) of "recommendations" but not of "promoted" content, which is all the ads specifically targeting me by geographics and likes (or dislikes, depending of if it goes by activities rather than following) and is using more of my data than the said "recommended"...

If there's a way someone can go wrong about doing something, they will. — Murphy, I guess.

What's with so many ranters ranting or commenting creepy/nonsense stuff today? Seriously, what are y'all on?

Well, I woke up with the mood to pick a fight with someone.

I think I'm gonna try and stay away from computers today.

1. "In June 2018, the acquisition of competitor GitHub by Microsoft caused a migration of over 250,000 projects to GitLab." 😂 lol
from Gitlab's Wikipedia:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/...

2. For the conspiracy theorists: Gitlab is owned by a company named GitLab inc. which is a "Privately Held" company, based on their LinkedIn page.

Bloomberg company profile:
https://bloomberg.com/research/...
linkedin:
https://linkedin.com/company/...

Never have I ever noticed until now that when you ssh into a vm, the roles of guest and host switches.

At first, you're the host and the vm is the guest. But when you ssh, the vm is the host and you're the guest.

What a crazy world we live in... 🤔

For about four years now, I've been wanting to play minecraft but can almost never be fucked with it, including finding someone to play with, or find a free one (or almost free... yeah I'm cheap) to play. 🤔

The struggle is real.

P.S. Last I played tho, was a year or so ago on the demo microsoft has on win10, so that doesn't count.

In the loving memory of Settings Gear,
Who was taken away from me so brutally and tragically, (dragged it off of the Dock by accident, even tho it was docked)
Who the Hot Corners cannot replace, and the forums have no way of getting it back.

You will be missed. 😢😢😢

P.S. Deepin DE, Antergos, if you have a way of getting it back, let me know 😉

Thank god. The migration from Github to Gitlab seems easy. I should do it soon-ish.

I spent about 16-17 hours today looking for a dormitory that has individual toilet and shower for each room (ensuite or whatever you wanna call it)
If I ever put this much effort into literally any software projects of mine, I'd be rich by now.

(in case your curios, no I didn't find any, but like not ANY any, more like in my price range and in the neighborhoods I wanted, which ironically is predominantly student-housings)

Today I learned that all these "booking" systems are half useless. You may as well snailmail an old lady with a good book-keeping skills.

You may even have less problems then.