I've been sick for some time now.

Regardless of the reason, there's this mental health side of it, where for a day I can't get out of bed and can't stop crying or stressing the fuck out. Other days, I have to do chores and work and study and I'm always behind. So either I'm dead in bed, or I'm in a hamster wheel of chores.

I honestly don't know how much more of this is humanly possible. But here's cheers to crawling through life. 🍻

https://instagram.com/reel/...

WE are responsible, as devs, to consider the consequences of our designs.

Let's not go back to the dark ages, eh?

!dev

If one more person stomps in the library, I will take off my shoe and throw it at them. 🤬

Been having stomach pains since I read my boss's email, giving me new tasks.

This is becoming regular btw. It happens even when I run into him.

Any advice for how to manage?

ngl, I'm still giggling about Sam Altman's response about Elon. The delivery was perfect.

Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

... Job search.

I was listening to an interesting lecture recording, but threw the entire thing out the window once my "umm" meter ran out and gave errors.

Stop saying "umm" in every fucking sentence! 🤬

LOVE how these companies are keep publishing their "AI models" without verifying or explaining their architecture, their data collection process, and any validation scores.

Like, I am to just take your word for it working "better" because of a study done by the school of PSYCHED(🤪)?

I can't use DeepSeek without signing up. Someone tell me what's behind this thin wall separating us?

Listening to podcasts on AI often makes me want to drag my hair out. So. Much. Bullshit. 🙄

What new-ish ML/ANN trends have you liked recently?

Urghhhh can we cancel Mondays please?

Attempting to find usable data.

PM: but we have data.
Me: we have data bags. But data in there is not uniform, the time series have different lengths, and some fields are missing cuz ROS does magic. Plus, that new data type you've introduced, doesn't actually have a set in stone schema so it's free for all. You literally do not have enough data for one decent quick study.
PM: but we have vision data.
Me: ... But we're not a vision department. where's the robot data.
PM: idk. Go ask others.

Me: *drags own hair out* 💀

Have you ever applied for a job and then spiraled after a few days of not hearing anything back?

Me too! 🙄😭😭😭

So, StackExchange has renamed Luigi Mangione's profile. Not a complete removal as of yet, it seems.

So if I am even accused of a crime, they're gonna remove my scientific publications and contributions?

Like idgaf about the guy, but how's this not censorship? How's this any better than burning certain books? (I'm going out on a limb here, but you get the idea)

I wish I could go back to the days I was struggling to understand heuristic search.

Today I struggle with probabilistic inference, as I've been doing so on and off for the last 2 years.

Something is just not fucking clicking.

Applied for the job. 😱😱😱😵🤢👽🥶🫨😵‍💫

Let's hope I don't have typos or fucked up in any shape or form.

A fancy position opened up in a good spot, which I should be applying for. I want to. But this soul sucking place I currently work for has crushed me and I really don't see it in me anymore. The robots have more soul in this corridor than people.

Mkay. Let's talk about Luigi Mangione.

Hero or terrorist?

He was one of us, like it or not.

Once upon a time we had the idea for a Europe meetup.
I suggest sometime in August next year. (Is 9 months prior enough time for you to plan?)
I also suggest Amsterdam cuz it's easy to reach for most.

Any takers?

First time ever that installing Ubuntu on a new desktop is giving me anxiety. It already failed once cuz snap was farting and therefore was busy. 😒😒😒

I have a cold. I'm dying. 🤧🤧🤧

I am at a work seminar and the presenter is talking bullshit about artificial neural nets.

Unfortunately I can't punch him through the webcam. This is frustrating. Why do morons who know nothing about neural nets always insist on talking about them?

Love it when a shady colleague of mine says something to me and another to someone else within a few months. She also kinda told me I shouldn't do a PhD, cuz not everyone is made for it.

Sexism is well and alive in academia! The worst part is that half the time it comes from women.

I hope karma pays her back, cuz I'm too busy to do so. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Urghhhhh I don't want to study anymore 😭😭😭

Mind you, me getting residency permit depends on this exam. And everyone keeps telling me it's easy, but I'm still stuck and my brain draws blanks so often. 😭😭😭

I can't focus during the day, I don't have enough energy to do chores in the evening, I can't sleep during the night, and I can't wake up on time in the morning.

It seems like a curse that keeps getting worse.

I hate my job enough that even thinking about a meeting with my boss gives me stomachaches and a dizzy head. I hate to admit this, because not only did I use to love my job, I also need to stick it out for a few more months because of immigration purposes. Fuuuuck.

The past few days I didn't drink much water. So today I am dehydrated and focus is basically non-existent.

Downed three glasses of water and one sugary drink, still can't understand what's happening around me. Gah!

In the meantime, trying to understand math papers. This is fun! **says while head is spinning and has a slight fever**

I'mma go home and sleep. 🛌

https://theverge.com/2024/9/...

Meta's CEO can really go fuck himself! The way social media works has altered so much of adult brain, let alone teenager's mental health. 😒 Which planet is this fuckface living on?

Useless meetings 🙄😮‍💨