Been 6 months at this one company and still don't have a good grasp on many things, I'm also almost absolutely useless in oncall and always loop in someone else, it's like my brain just afks.

I'm sure everyone has that one dumb Dev on their team, guess it's me this time, I can sense the annoyance from my teammates by my stupidity so far, there's just so much to learn about domains and specific things that only come up when things break, idk how to gain proper knowledge without someone babysitting me and Its shit for someone to do that (I'm not a junior Dev)

If a thing comes up just solve it on your own using google even if it takes 3 days. You'll learn

@Hazarth I've tried to go with that but been on tickets for legit months with just new PR comments and things I never considered

@pandasama feelings of inadequacies is normal.

If you feel your team is getting frustrated with you talk to your lead or Sr dev. Explain to them that you're having difficulties and would like gain more experience with specific tasks (make sure you have a list of these before you talk to them).

Also bring a list of things that you think you already or can excel at.

Not everyone has the resolve and skill for dealing with disasters in operations, and that's ok. There's always a way for a member to contribute, and any manager or company that states otherwise is either lazy or overworked (either way you should look for a new job).

You got this. We all have our moments of weakness and that's why it's important for your team to have your back.

@sariel thank you for the words of motivation, I'll be honest with my manager I guess, it's hard to list what I can contribute though when others can do the same but better, but will try. Thank you again!

If you can get a condensed list of things you should know then you can learn those without being babysat.

Have you considered the product may be incomprehensible?

@Demolishun it tends to be very specific things, like we got runbooks of loads of alerts, but somehow a lot of times when something happens it's a scenario not in the runbook and I have no idea how to diagnose it

@Crost I would if the past engineers also had trouble but they all seem to be fine so it's just me

I think we’ve all felt like this at some point in our careers. I started a new job about 3 years ago after being at my last job 11+ years where I could basically solve any problem in my sleep since I had been there for so long. I started this new job and felt useless for about 2 years. Now I’m in the thick of it and have become the go-to person for operation support and issues (which I hate dealing with, but it pays the bills for now). One thing I would recommend is every time you do solve something, even with help, update the run books. That can go a long way in your career - management tends to notice those that try to make things better.

@fiftyhz thanks, yeah will do that from now one even if it's a small thing

I swear it takes ages for this to go away. I used to feel like that for years at my current company, until I noticed people kept coming to me with questions. Suddenly realised I’m now the person people see as the “knowledgable one”… and yet yesterday I broke a mainline build by accidentally approving a PR to the wrong branch. I don’t think you ever become 100% certain unless you’re earning a fat wad.

@soup-bowl yeah true, maybe I'm not seeing the "mistakes" that the experienced folk here can make

@pandasama wait for a major outage event to occur, great time to bring out the interrogation rule book to see who gets super defensive 😂

@soup-bowl haha we've actually had a lot of incidents recently but no one's playing a blame game either