Been 6 months at this one company and still don't have a good grasp on many things, I'm also almost absolutely useless in oncall and always loop in someone else, it's like my brain just afks.

I'm sure everyone has that one dumb Dev on their team, guess it's me this time, I can sense the annoyance from my teammates by my stupidity so far, there's just so much to learn about domains and specific things that only come up when things break, idk how to gain proper knowledge without someone babysitting me and Its shit for someone to do that (I'm not a junior Dev)

If a thing comes up just solve it on your own using google even if it takes 3 days. You'll learn

@Hazarth I've tried to go with that but been on tickets for legit months with just new PR comments and things I never considered

@pandasama feelings of inadequacies is normal.

If you feel your team is getting frustrated with you talk to your lead or Sr dev. Explain to them that you're having difficulties and would like gain more experience with specific tasks (make sure you have a list of these before you talk to them).

Also bring a list of things that you think you already or can excel at.

Not everyone has the resolve and skill for dealing with disasters in operations, and that's ok. There's always a way for a member to contribute, and any manager or company that states otherwise is either lazy or overworked (either way you should look for a new job).

You got this. We all have our moments of weakness and that's why it's important for your team to have your back.

@sariel thank you for the words of motivation, I'll be honest with my manager I guess, it's hard to list what I can contribute though when others can do the same but better, but will try. Thank you again!

Have you considered the product may be incomprehensible?

@Demolishun it tends to be very specific things, like we got runbooks of loads of alerts, but somehow a lot of times when something happens it's a scenario not in the runbook and I have no idea how to diagnose it

@Crost I would if the past engineers also had trouble but they all seem to be fine so it's just me

@fiftyhz thanks, yeah will do that from now one even if it's a small thing

@soup-bowl yeah true, maybe I'm not seeing the "mistakes" that the experienced folk here can make

@soup-bowl haha we've actually had a lot of incidents recently but no one's playing a blame game either