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kiki
2y

They say “think outside the box”. When you're depressed, the box is made of concrete. The more depressed you are, the smaller the box.

Our brain is wired to cut off thought processes that take too much energy. In depression, this mechanism works against you, cutting off everything but laying down. To me, get up in the morning and go brush my teeth is too outside the box. Thinking about it is like touching a boiling kettle. Painful, ouch-y, and my brain doesn't even want me to think about doing it.

I'm working and living in my bed. I don't really get up. Should I even say about things like going out or cooking?

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  • 3
    Shower. Check.

    Coffee. Check.

    Couch. Check.

    Couch has eaten me.

    Dozen hours later.

    Why is it dark outside. Oh. Time passed.
  • 2
    @kiki the worse part is when you start getting tired of doing nothing but everything you can think of, no matter how passive (games, books or heck, even tv) feels like it needs too much energy… I feel you
  • 0
    @bigmonsterlover thanks, this is very high appraisal for me
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