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Impostor Syndrome...

I dropped out of university because of Maths (I'm not really that bad at maths, but that thematic wasn't really mine... But whatever) and obviously had no job nor any graduation (except my school thingy) and wasn't able to study something computer science related, because that's how it goes in Germany... (If you can't pass a certain subject, you will get blocked for the studies that involve that subject for 2 years or sth... Because I failed in Maths meant that I'm fucked)

So I started an apprenticeship to atleast do something and get that degree.

In my new company I really felt (and sometime feel it nowadays) like I'm the fifth wheel on the car and don't really achieve anything (but i really do).

That really fuckin sucks and hinders the fun that I could have in my job :/

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  • 5
    A great team is made up of a mix of formally educated and self-educated people. If you have a passion for what you do, you probably have a great deal of experience and knowledge that they don't learn at the university. Chin up, you got a job and you were hired for a reason :)
  • 2
    @TerriToniAX thanks :)
    Words like that really help!
  • 3
    What's your job mate? And don't worry that 2 years thing goes on in the States as well (at least for my University)
  • 3
    @ctmalloy
    I'm a backend developer for our main application. Fixing and adding stuff.

    And kind of a gap filler (not in a bad way) for internal tools and all that stuff. Because no one has time for that (all involved with our main application or other projects) I'm the guy that does stuff that should've been done some time ago.

    Or developing some internal tools / automations that are wanted.
  • 5
    @datmaddin well, if you're a fifth wheel you're the spare, and they'd be lucky to have you in the boot if they had a flat. And flats are inevitable, keep up the good work mate, times on your side
  • 3
    If you fail a class, you can't take any related class? for TWO YEARS?
    That is insane and so completely stupid and ridiculous, I have no idea what to say.

    I can ...kinda... see being barred from taking classes that have the failed one as a requirement, but even then it's your choice. But any related class? What the fuck?
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