Go for a helpdesk position: Programming is to boring, just writing all the time...

What the FUCK am I trying to learn now?!

First step: Find a good mental doc.

If you do first level support, you'll definitely need one.

Could still try do some SysAdmin work in the future, was going to suggest maybe webhosting but I dont think so now in an overwhelming Google/Azure/AWS world unless you are aiming for a really really specific niche, like big data and/or machine/deep learning servers

@HumanBetaApp @legionfrontier I don't think a doctor can help me... But im fighting my way out! Even if it is just web dev (for now)

And you also learn alot about how to fuck projects/applications up badly, so I can do everything better with my own apps :D