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I think Im subconsciously planning my suicide. I already abandoned close relatives and friends. I refuse to work or apply for Jobs. I am lazy and spontaneous. Im back on drugs. I take unnecessary risks. Time is moving fast but slow at the same time. I’m fine with the monotony of slipping down into a deeper hole. I don’t know what hope is. Some days I don’t eat at all or get out of bed. I even started confessing my feelings to people I love but have been scared of. I feel that there is nothing left to do but get rid of this alive feeling and reality as I know it. And related to all of this, I feel apathetic and bored.

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  • 5
    Sorry to hear good sir. Please seek help ASAP, a hotline or anyone close.
  • 7
    Just so you know, those feelings aren't normal, and they can be fixed with medical intervention.

    You don't have to die to stop feeling this way. Life will be enjoyable again.
  • 6
    Sorry to hear that you're feeling that way. It sounds like severe depression, but it's absolutely something that can be changed.

    I hope that you're able to speak with your doctor as soon as possible, because the quicker you do, the quicker you'll start to get your life back.
  • 5
    Suicide is letting the ones that want to bring you down win.
  • 5
    I feel ya mate. I'm bipolar type 1 (the most severe type) and autistic. Once proper meds kicked in, I was so ashamed and so upset by how easy the fix was all along. All my suffering was for nothing. It didn't lead to growth, it didn't lead to improvement. I was just running a marathon with a broken leg all along.
  • 5
    Walk, do cardio of some kind. I have to do cardio or I feel like shit.
  • 1
    Working out has a very strong evidence of improving mental health. But, if you don't have mental resource to do that, there is the next best thing — hygiene. Take a shower every day. Brush your teeth twice a day. Wash your face twice a day. Use a face cream. Use a dental floss and a tongue scrubber. Change your bedsheets every week. Clean your room.

    Your life cannot not change for the better if you have good hygiene. The evidence is rock solid.
  • 2
    Ahh dude, don't kill yourself. At least let me box you in a ring, so I can beat you up like the little bitch you are.
  • 1
    See a doctor
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