holy fucking shit.

where do i even begin.....

it is 6:06 am as im writing this, wide awake havent slept all night and just got home.

CHAPTER 1

yesterday:
after my whore blonde ex passed the exam yesterday, she celebrated. i didnt give a fuck. didnt congratulate her. because she also didnt give a fuck about my brand new bmw and didnt say shit or congratulate me. fine.

when she got home as usual arrogant whore that she is, kept allegedly texting her college group about exams, while i was telling her to go out for a drink and then go to her place to fuck.

she accepted but does not let me go to her place anymore, we can only fuck at mine (i live with parents and she lives alone so thats the only reason why its more convenient at her place).

she refused to let me in her place, because i refuse to drive her in my new bmw. i want to drive her, but under the condition that she blocks her tyronnes and chads who fucked her.

she blocked everyone except 1 who shes in love with. shes like really in love with that guy. so much fucking in love she cant block him.

so my nerves broke down. i gave her an ultimatum. instead of backing offF i doubled down. now she has to both block him And let me in her apartment to fuck, if she ever wants to see me again.

she had shown 0 respect towards me. she did not give a fuck what i just said. dont know if she even listened, cause she was texting the alleged college group (we were on a video call). my words apparently have 0 weight for her.

i got annoyed. i kept repeating, giving her chances over and over and over and over again,

"are you going to block your guy friend who you fucked for years or would you rather not see me ever again?"

i had to repeat that question 5 times, cause she was responding, but not answering, and her response was some trash talk where she plays the victim card and blames me.

last time, i asked her,

"so you're not going to block him?"

she said,

"no just because im not fucking him anymore"

i blocked her. on whatsapp. then i unfollowed her. on Instagram. then i blocked her. on viber. she still follows me on instagram.

CHAPTER 2

still yesterday:
when i blocked her, honestly i thought she wouldn't give a shit. whores never give a shit. so i called her via phone call.

she was crying. thought to myself, wtf? she said why are you calling me if you're leaving me. then i realized, i got full power, full control of where i will lead this conversation--and that is to her complete psychological destruction (i read a lot of psychology books).

it had to be done. she had to pay the price for the irreversible damage she had done to me, in cold blood heartlessly, lying to my face while looking in my eyes, and saying she loves me after shes done sucking other dicks.

i realized revenge will fight fire with fire. if i tell her im gonna fuck whores in my brand new bmw she will go and fuck others too. this wont cause her enough damage.

so instead i told her, lets go out in X place and for a drink or whatever food you want to eat, the bill is on me, since this will be the last time we're gonna see each other irl, ever again. i just want to have our last memories remembered as being beautiful.

when she heard that, she went mad insane. she cried so so so much. she was sobbing. she was deeply distrubed. i could literally hear her soul die and heart break into pieces. good, thats what she had done to me, which made me heartless like i am now.

"no guy has ever left me im very emotional and i cant take this, please dont leave me i love you", she said, barely, through deep cries and sobbing.

i was cold blooded heartless just like she was, and wasnt backing down. i stood my ground. i kept saying to go out as our last time to see each other again.

she started smoking cigarettes. then drank ibuprofen and some other pills. then took some fucking weed, drugs, for the first time ever and smoked it. then took other alcohol and meds from the shock of me leaving her.

she kept talking shit how she will drink a bunch of pills to overdose and die, cause she cant live without me in her life.

after an hour of her sobbing from my controlled psychological destruction, her mom came to visit her and was in shock what she had seen. she was like a zombie. her mom asked, what happened. she said b2plane left me because i dont want to block X guy. her mom said, "oh my God i told you it will backfire if you keep fucking around like that".

so her mom knew that she was whoring around all along, and warned her to stop doing that, but she doesnt give a shit what her mom says. should have listened.

at the end she said to come to her apartment for at least one last fuck. she wants me to fck her. at first i refused but seeing how drunk and disoriented she was, i had to.

i came and cuddled her. tried to comfort her. she was crying. long story short we fked 5 times and she swallowed 4 cause she wants a part of me to be with her.