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I need to vent before I rip some innocent bastards spine out and beat them with it.

My girlfriend constantly switches and starts having a go about the smallest things and calling me a waste of skin, a shithead, a fucking idiot, a twat, a monghole, a retard, and many other delightful names. I've got a thick skin, but hearing it coming from her gets me extraordinarily angry as it reminds me of someone I really really hate and would probably leave bleeding in a ditch. I don't want to lose her as she's the best thing to happen to me in the 19 years I've lived in this scummy, self centered cesspit of society, but I'm so so scared that one day I will snap and I don't have a clue what to do, but I hate myself for even getting angry at her for something she can't help, and I honestly feel like saving everyone the trouble and dying so I don't cause any more damage to the world than I already have. I have no idea what's wrong with me and I'm scared of what I'll do.

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    Why do she say that? Does not sound healthy
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    @Linux I know but I honestly don't think she can help it, which is worse
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    @g-m-f that's just me though. I have some self control but I sometimes have really dark thoughts that genuinely scare me.
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    Maybe she's the one causing part of the problem.
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    Pack up your shit and move on. She is no good, don’t look back. You don’t want to believe this shit, it will fuck you up. Do whatever you can to get out of this abusive relationship... NOW!!!
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    That is not OK - and I don't understand why she is supposed to not being able to help it. It's one thing to call someone names playfully - once in while - but it's definitely not to do so in anger and repeatedly.

    Talk to her - not while fighting - about how it pushes your buttons or hurts you, show her how you feel. You'll feel uneasy to do so, but it's worth talking to keep something intact that's important to you both. If she doesn't care about how you feel, well ... reflect for yourself if it's worth it.
    Don't let your anger eat you away from the inside, it'll only get you into darker places.
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    @nin0x03 it's mental health, we both have issues.

    Thank you all for your advice. I still don't think I can walk away without at least trying, but I'll see
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    Look into why.
    If it's something you (both) can fix, do so.
    If it isnt, leave.

    Be very objective about what is best for you in the long term.
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    @Yamemori I hate to sound miserable but that covers 99% of people in my life including me
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    @Nanos sorry, not sure what that acronym means at the start?

    Thanks for the advice, I appreciate it. Luckily (or not), I don't think she'd dare send me death threats if we do go separate ways, and being alone isn't an issue for me, I prefer it honestly, when she goes on a rant it really fucks with my head when she just won't stop
  • 0
    @Nanos huh, learn something every day
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    @DucksCanCode
    Well, it wont get better then if you dont sort that out.
    I guess that you have tried talking to her? And if so, what is her reaction to that?
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    @Linux she just said I should stop doing stupid shit despite the fact they're small inconsequential things that aren't actually mistakes she just thinks because I'm not perfect and can't/won't change at the click of her fingers I'm stupid and can't do anything right. It's not all the time though. FUCK ME ARSBDJDUDBDJDURHFHH
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    @DucksCanCode
    Well, if she starts again - remember her what you have talked about.

    Take the time to sit down toghether and write down stuff about each other that is good, and also what you think the other one can improve.

    Do the same thing after a month and compare it to the month before.
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    @Nanos I'd love therapy but it costs money, and that's a problem. Also, the last time I went to a therapist I realised that there's something wrong with me and I would probably be better off dead. Fun times.
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    @Nanos huh, kind of being an experiment for therapists. Sounds intriguing.

    In answer to your question, it's a complete lack of empathy or caring for pretty much everyone (myself included) and a very sick twisted mind that would be better off being burnt and buried.
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    @Nanos yeah, and I have thought about forces.
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    Guys, how did you get from the talk about relationship problems over changing the name and leaving the country to joining the army?
    You know, if you ask me you're all a bit exagerating - there were sone good, simple, reasonable ideas on what to do, if that doesn't work, you might want to think about breaking up...without leaving the country, y'know
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