Man, the effort it takes to build a solid foundation in Computer Science. 3 years absolute minimum, 5 years recommended, 10 years so you can start relaxing more because you can rely on your foundation.

Helps if it truly interests you and breathe bitches and bytes.

@retoor Rofl. Well, not every single little aspect or skill interests me. Don't give me programming for old systems as a job. As with anything, things become unpleasant when you turn a hobby or talent into a job.

@CaptainRant things lose their love if you're coerced into doing them

@jestdotty That's right.

@CaptainRant Give me one of those sounds fun AF

@CaptainRant jobs aren't supposed to coerce

what I mean is the "a hobby becomes a job" isn't getting at what's actually causing the disillusionment. it's not that it's a job. it's if the atmosphere at the job is one of fear

I used to be bothered by this. I liked programming but a job ruined it. then I couldn't program even on my own time. and it's not that I didn't like programming. it was the greatest thing I ever found in the world. so it caused distress for me to not be able to do it anymore, and then aimlessness and depression

turns out I hung on to baggage from the job. the coercion and fear they kept trying to put into my head

and the kicker is in Canada coercive environments allow you to literally sue your employer. but they told me everywhere was like that and that it was normal. is it normal or not? cuz I haven't worked since and I can't bring myself to