I don't know why, but the backrooms sound, e.g. the generic transformer hum, is so soothing to me. Call me crazy, but oh how I want my room, and maybe my entire apartment, to resemble a 2000's office. Think cs_office map, but for real!

I know it's probably because of my childhood, but I constantly feel like I'm being watched. Not just watched, but at any time a vague authority figure will rush into my room and make me do things because I'm long overdue on everything for some reason.

This notion somehow completely falls apart when I'm inside some office, the closer to 2000's in aesthetics, the better. I don't feel comfortable in luxurious interiors, or in Hygge-inducing Scandinavian interiors, or at "home" (I have no feeling of home). But 2000's office is my anxiety's kryptonite.

My dream is to have a cubicle at home. And that the door to my room should have that thing that automatically closes it. And the lock made by Abloy. Old office-style carpeted floor. Vertical metal shades. And let this paradise drown in soothing 60 cycle hum.