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colaguy
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Tl;dr porn is ruining my life.

Today I had a meeting with the project leader and the CTO. They had bad news, which did not come as a surprise.

In short, they said I did not pass the expectations they had, and unfortunately need to find somewhere else to work.

This is my third time being told to find somewhere else to work, and I really can't describe how it feels. I was even told that I maybe I should reconsider my future as a developer, and kids can do programming better than I can do.

It's really difficult when all you've done in the last year is to learn and improve your current skills.

I have good grades, a unique experience, built lots of unique projects, and a GitHub portfolio with high activity. The apps I've built are used by many customers today. I also have a blog with 600 k views where I share dev tips.

The thing with this work if I'm going, to be honest, is that they expected someone with senior experience, and unfortunately, I don't have that thus it takes many years to build it. So I started here with almost scratch experience of the things they needed.

On the other hand, it feels like a relief in that I can finally focus on my personal business. And maybe this wasn't the right place to work, maybe it requires a couple of jobs until I find the right place.

Despite the bumpy ride, and what such people tell you, I'm not going to give up.

10 years ago, my school teacher told me I was going to be a carpenter (nothing against that) but I manage to get an MSc degree in the engineering field.

There's a lot of shit going into your head when you receive such message like "What if they are true, what if I can't handle programming, what if I'll never be anything etc".

I'm not giving up, this is just a great story every successful person has.

What my number one problem is, and I will f*** win is porn addiction. Get rid of that, and the future is bright.

Sorry for mixing so many things here.

Comments
  • 4
    That sucks. You got this; one day at a time. Hang in there and you definitely will find your job equivalent of home.
  • 10
    Why not try to get developer position in porn industry then ?
  • 3
    Yeah, somehow the easy access to porn is ruining a lot of lives.
  • 6
    @vane maybe not a good environment for someone who actually has an addiction problem
  • 1
    @gaffletron maybe because he only see one side of the business in his pants
  • 5
    Based on the other info I’m gonna say your life is not ruined and you were let go for being threatening to the success of others or making them look lazy.

    You have way more dev successes than me and I’ve never been told those things by anyone but the man in my mirror. I think you were just working with assholes.

    Idk what the nature of your addiction is, but I just don’t think that’s what is blocking you in this case. Maybe you do it more than you feel good about, which is something to work on, but it doesn’t sound like it’s running career interference just yet.
  • 1
    this is me, exactly my story. currently also running my own bussiness. i tough but fullfilling
  • 5
    I will tell you the same thing what i say to my friends when they are down: the problem is not you, the problem is you! You are limiting yourself if you keep believing that you are not at senior level you will stay on that level, don't doubt yourself stop thinking just as programmer and look at it from other point of view cause being senior its not just about knowing how to code, dont try to reach senior level just for the job or money reach it for your own satisfaction and dont believe what every company says, some of them are just trying to put you down so they can feed their own ego.

    Just be limitless
  • 1
    @echonox you couldn’t have said it any better. I don’t have much to say!

    @colaguy
    Stay strong mate and don’t let the thoughts of others bring you down. It’s easier said than done. I’ve been there and I’ve been able to prove many people wrong when they said to give up on Computer science cos I won’t be able to complete and graduate. Now, some of these people come to me asking how they can get into IT field.
  • 3
    Look into reddit's noporn. r/noporn

    they're very friendly and non judgmental from what I've seen.
  • 1
    Appreciate the amazing feedback. It's our darkest times when we find light to something greater.
  • 0
    @TheCommoner282 always good with jokes like these 🤣
  • 3
    Move to India. Porn and torrent sites are blocked by Govt. here. Or you can use Indian VPN proxy.😃😄
  • 1
    @Arpit05 this is like removing all sharp objects from someone who is suicidal, then saying ‘oh by the way, there’s bleach under the sink, also there’s a rope over there’.
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