I cannot learn to let go.
It is eating me alive from inside.

I would not use global variables but rather variables with a limited scope. This makes letting go a lot easier.

Jokes aside, I hope everything will turn out well and that you can let go of whatever is tearing you down! Stay strong 🍀

Ok

Get. Help. ffs

In order to let go, one must first remove 🖐 from 🍆

One does not learn, one realises it has occurred.

“Devil shivers when the nice guy loses his patience”

That is interesting I guess. Might I suggest fb or Twitter instead? or a doctor?

Very well. Admitting that you haveba problem and thst you cannot/dunno how to work on yourself is a good thing.

You don't have to carry your burden alone, all by yourself. Do you think you could use someone's help now? If yes - try and find someone who you could trust to lead you through all this mess. Be it a friend or a professional in the field [is it a mental thing? A job for psychologist?]

good job so far!

Apply for manager role ... Problem solved